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How shall I start,,,in 1991 I graduated from college,,within 3 years I was bored in my job,,my father had died and my kids were on their own, so I got bored. I started to look around for something to interest me. For otherwise my unconscious would take over and rule everything and fuck up my life, my subconscious hates to be bored.
It took me a long time to figure out what was going on in my life and boredom was myself,,,, and my enemy.  So instead of letting my boredom/unconscious  self ruin my job,, I decided to defeat it in another way,,giving it food for thought. To keep it busy so to speak.. I took an evaluation and my criteria was only two  things, something interesting and something I knew nothing about.



So I picked politics,,usually I would read, but this time I picked a TV show instead.

I picked The JIm Lehrer Newshour as it was called at that time.  I would get home from work everyday just in time to watch. I came to know the personalities and at first as with anything new,,, many terms were used that I did not understand, so I bought a book, that seemed to be in the style of writing I loved and gave the basics of how our gov't was formed. How it worked and most of all the important aspects of gov't  that I could understand.
I remembered little of high school civics, nothing as a matter of fact. I did not vote at this time. I did not realize that this group of people  had so much control over my life.

One evening  a Friday,, Brooks and Shields were on and Shields made a statement about the catholic church , something about a nun, and I knew it was wrong and I wrote to them about it,, I having no idea of DC and its inbred culture,,wrote on yellow pad paper, I even at the bottom of the peper wrote up the sdie to finish my sentence. Being a student , paper was precious. I am sure they got a big kick out of my letter and probably still have it. They were so I learned,, flattered never having gotten a fan letter before.
So began our relationship. This is how I gained access to one of the most powerful men on the planet and really didn't care about that. I was not impressed,,matter of fact mostly ignored that fact and did not realize it,nor did I care,,it was not important to me. To me to speak of ideas and philosophy was wonderful.

I started to read my book, and write a letter to the newshour every once in a while when the subject moved me. The book was Democracy in America by Alexis deTocqueville, that genius, that wonderful kind, nice man, whom I fell in love with. He loved the US as well as I. I will not tell his story here you must read his book for yourself. It is quite a story as well.

In 1995 I bought a computer/printer/ everything from Costco, the first year my computer kept crashing till apple did a recall. I found out later the computer was defective , but all that time I thought it was my ineptitude that was crashing my computer.Was I pissed.
The point being in 95 I went online and of course plugged into the Newshour.  I could watch them in real time and comment in real time.  I would message and comment and they would do programs for me, I never asked them to do this,,they did it on their own.  I thought they needed the help,,how funny is that!

They were also given a big window into the world of the common man, me,I told them many things of my world, my life, that they in their DC isolation had no clue about. I told them how things were out here in the real world,, How policies effect us, how I believed in global warming, abortion rights, and why I believed in abortion right, I was an atheist, a dental hygienist, we spoke of many many things.

 This was over a span of several years, so they got to know me. I didn't lie, something so alien to their lives. I guess everyone in DC lies,,to cover up mistakes or put the blame on others,,etc. I also learned a lot about DC that it was not a very nice place to work and cutthroat was normal, to see the common man as cattle.

I learned that DC is called the mistress capital of the world,,,I am not surprised men will have their orgasms,,that is what makes the world go round and what I began to realize is that it is all about the orgasm,,,,money , power,,, orgasms. yup I started to formulate an idea, that the world is run on testosterone and sperm, and my conclusions were that it is.  A thin film of oil on top and a thin film of sperm on the bottom.

 I was not impressed as up until this time, the gov't seemed to be this big group of people on a hill who had magical powers and they do.  They did shit that made 1984 seem like a fairy tale.

I also learned that in DC "if you want a friend you should get a dog", their words not mine, the competition for influence, for money, for funding, for power is so intense , no one can have the luxury of being a friend, everyone is cutthroat. I felt pity for some of them to have to live like that but it is a choice and the material benefits are incredible.

So this is the atmosphere of the people I was talking with,,, I being a common slob , who does not lie, very rarely drink, smokes pot once in a while. Feel that lying and stealing is immature behavior best left to childhood, developed a relationship with these people, they came to know me, to know I do not lie,and if you do not want the truth do not ask.

I'm not a genius person but have good common sense and am upfront with myself and my ideology,, I have nothing to hide from anyone. NOTHING.  I want my privacy , but am ashamed of nothing I have ever done.

So they liked me,and I liked them.

 Later, I started to speak to them about the Peabody watershed and the golf course,. I took a video camera of the area and was going to send it to others for evaluation to start a non profit to buy the land  and leave it as it is,,open wild park..

It was winter, I met Leslie while walking in the woods, we spoke of the golf course and she was more upset than I. She spoke of her album of pictures she had taken of the wildlife that lives there. We met at a book store and talked about starting a group of people , advertising what we wanted to do and so began the downfall of my life..I suggested we visit the mayor, she could explain to him her feelings and her show him her album of wild animal pictures and I wanted to find out who else owned the land. Torigian told me it was some guy in a wheel chair sold his land to DiBiasi, contractor for high end homes, he built on the other side of the golf course, he also wanted to buy more land from the city (our watershed) to expand that and I do not know if this happened, this summer I will walk over and see.  Eastman Gelatin owned the third of the land, the part with the toxic dump.

The meeting

Dec. 97 ,,slushy day, we entered his office, Leslie sat on the left of the mayor, I sat on right, his bodyguard and fetcher was  between me and Torigian.  Leslie,

,to be finished later.

pot and Torigian/kelly

I have been a targeted individulal for a long time, ever since the meeting with Torigian,,, my targeting started two weeks after our meeting with scott burns and danny mckenna being used to stay in the empty apt. upstairs,,
I tried to stop smoking pot,,knowing my perps would use it against me and they will.
Laurie Nelson Torigians daughter married Rick Nelson,,how funny his brother is a cop, this town is completly controlled by the powers that be,, Torigian put in place people only loyal to him,,relatives,,,and their relatives.. those whose jobs depended on Torigian, to ensure their loyalty.
Of course Torigian can have his mistress and destroy peoples lives using his power of state, thats ok, but to smoke a little weed or grow it for myself is not allowed.
Someone burnt one of my plants, just to make sure it is pot,,,the other night. Probably Paul.. his stake holding his tarp down flew up and the stake hit and broke my window...I told him about it, he knows we smoke pot and I saw the meter reader for the city discussing our pot plant last year with David Diachision..I took a picture of them talking,,,he was describing the size of the plant,,,I heard him and he pointed to one of Davids plants between him and Franciscos house,,,just about the same size...
These plants are mine,,so I can get through my day
I applied for certification calling several but was denied,,,I am not under the care of a psychiatrist,,,after the fiasco at Mass general HOspital,,I never want to see a shrink again.....and you have to have a history of anxiety,,,I have that but not documented,,, you only have to read my blog to see my anxiety about being targeted.....
Have Kelly apply...today...I will give her the phone numbers.......