Monday, March 27, 2017

Family

I love my kids but we do not have a good relationship , I don't know why , we just do. When I look at a problem   I try to look at as many faceted of it as i can. To try to at least cut out the most obvious unforeseen circumstances I can, I learned the hard way I'm not a politician. But my way opened Cuba, they may regret it, it was the US armpit, you could get away with bad behavior in Cuba that you couldn't do in the US. A lot of perversions . I hope now that she is opened up it doesn't happen again . Castro threw a lot of that out. Gave the money and I think land back to the people.
Cuba from what I understand is beautiful.
When Danirlle was younger and would bring a problem to me I would examine it and several times she did not come out on top. She felt I went against her. Which I didn't I was just looking for the right answer to the problem. She seemed to come out wrong . A lot. I think that ruined a lot. I didn't realize it till later years and explained to her how I looked at a problem, she u derstood but I think the damage had been done. She has never been a faithful daughter, matter of fact niether  one, so I guess somehow it's my fault. Since Kelly was born Danielle has been her mother. She was hateful toward James, for a long time. Till I questioned her about it and she immediately changed her attitude toward him . Their both woosies. She raised pussys and I raised chew nails .

Well sometimes it takes family to straighten things out my dad was to old and gone to Florida but he and my kids got along well , they hung out and so did I .
I'm in so despair, last night the house was bombed . I think at first it was Devin, on my FB page   Or maybe it was someone else , anyway it was because I posted on my FB page info about the water treatment plant fire.

Wednesday, March 22, 2017

22 March 17, muslims write up by bikers

I have much to relate, James's testicle is causing him trouble,,, the tube is supposed to be twisted. very painful es been to the ER a couple of times...Perps...punishing me they followed us several times to costco,,, sabotaged the car and now this...how do I know because the perps follow a pattern... same pattern as mine and others.  
Very little is different , I have seen a lot of it,,, sexual assault in many forms,,, as I have said many many times if the public only believed us and if the public only knew the total control these devices gives one person over another they would rise up and burn the white house the pentagon, the doc and the dod to the ground.. but unfortunately it may be to late for that....
Today a person attacked the Parliament in the UK,,,,several 5? were killed,,, using a car, and a gun,, he was killed , they consider it a terrorists action but there is no information on the attacker... more on that later...
A biker group against muslims wrote this,,, I thought this pretty good as an atheist I think all religion is bullshit. 
anyway james is being harmed,,,, and the perps have attacked my neck,,, Aaliyah cannot hold up her head all by herself yet,,, I suggested that shorty put her on her tummy for hours,,, that will strengthen her,,, she will do exercise all day.. and as a baby she will respond immediately. Shorty has not spoken to me since..oh well she'll get over it,,,
I sent her a international rain jacket and a shrug , my white one,,, I love them but can't wear them because I have no boobs,surgery,, supposed breast cancer,,, but I imagine if your hit in the breast with these weapons you will see a thickening of the tissue under neath that can give the appearance of cancer... a diffuse condense area on the breast. , I just have a belly...
so the perps are going generational....this is fucking generational already.  More later.

Muslims THIS IS WHAT YOU CAN ALWAYS EXPECT WITH MUSLIMS The Shoe Bomber was a Muslim
The Beltway Snipers were Muslims
The Fort Hood Shooter was a Muslim

The underwear Bomber was a Muslim
The U-S.S. Cole Bombers were Muslims
The Madrid Train Bombers were Muslims
The Bali Nightclub Bombers were Muslims
The London Subway Bombers were Muslims
The Moscow Theatre Attackers were Muslims
The Boston Marathon Bombers were Muslims
The Pan-Am flight #93 Bombers were Muslims
The Air France Entebbe Hijackers were Muslims
The Iranian Embassy Takeover, was by Muslims
The Beirut U.S. Embassy bombers were Muslims
The Libyan U.S. Embassy Attack was by Muslims
The Buenos Aires Suicide Bombers were Muslims
The Israeli Olympic Team Attackers were Muslims
The Kenyan U.S, Embassy Bombers were Muslims
The Saudi, Khobar Towers Bombers were Muslims
The Beirut Marine Barracks bombers were Muslims
The Besian Russian School Attackers were Muslims
The first World Trade Center Bombers were Muslims
The Bombay & Mumbai India Attackers were Muslims
The Achille Lauro Cruise Ship Hijackers were Muslims
The September 11th 2001 Airline Hijackers were Muslims' Robert Kennedy was killed by a Muslim
Al-Qaida terrorists attack African hotel popular with westerners At least 27 dead after Islamists seize luxury hotel in Mali's capital And the list continues to grow!
Think of it:
Buddhists living with Hindus = No Problem
Hindus living with Christians = No Problem
Hindus living with Jews = No Problem
Christians living with Shintos = No Problem
Shintos living with Confucians = No Problem
Confucians living with Baha'is = No Problem
Baha'is living with Jews = No Problem
Jews living with Atheists = No Problem
Atheists living with Buddhists = No Problem
Buddhists living with Sikhs = No Problem
Sikhs living with Hindus = No Problem
Hindus living with Baha'is = No Problem
Baha'is living with Christians = No Problem
Christians living with Jews = No Problem
Jews living with Buddhists = No Problem
Buddhists living with Shintos = No Problem
Shintos living with Atheists = No Problem
Atheists living with Confucians = No Problem

Confucians living with Hindus = No Problem
Muslims living with Hindus = Problem
Muslims living with Buddhists = Problem
Muslims living with Christians = Problem
Muslims living with Jews = Problem
Muslims living with Sikhs = Problem
Muslims living with Baha'is = Problem
Muslims living with Shintos = Problem
Muslims living with Atheists = Problem
MUSLIMS LIVING WITH MUSLIMS = BIG PROBLEM **********SO THIS LEAD TO *****************

They’re not happy in Gaza
They're not happy in Egypt
They're not happy in Libya
They're not happy in Morocco
They're not happy in Iran
They're not happy in Iraq
They're not happy in Yemen
They're not happy in Afghanistan
They're not happy in Pakistan
They're not happy in Syria
They're not happy in Lebanon
They're not happy in Nigeria
They're not happy in Kenya
They're not happy in Sudan
******** So, where are they happy? ********** They're happy in Australia

They're happy in England
They're happy in Belgium
They're happy in France
They're happy in Italy
They're happy in Germany
They're happy in Sweden
They're happy in the USA & Canada
They're happy in Norway & India
They're happy in almost every country that is not Islamic! And who do they blame? Not Islam... Not their leadership... Not themselves... THEY BLAME THE COUNTRIES THEY ARE HAPPY IN!! And they want to change the countries they're happy in, to be like the countries they came from where they were unhappy and finally they will be get hammered

!!!!
Islamic Jihad: AN ISLAMIC TERROR ORGANIZATION ISIS: AN ISLAMIC TERROR ORGANIZATION Al-Qaeda: AN ISLAMIC TERROR ORGANIZATION Taliban: AN ISLAMIC TERROR ORGANIZATION Hamas: AN ISLAMIC TERROR ORGANIZATION Hezbollah: AN ISLAMIC TERROR ORGANIZATION Boko Haram: AN ISLAMIC TERROR ORGANIZATION Al-Nusra: AN ISLAMIC TERROR ORGANIZATION Abu Sayyaf: AN ISLAMIC TERROR ORGANIZATION


Al-Badr: AN ISLAMIC TERROR ORGANIZATION
Muslim Brotherhood: AN ISLAMIC TERROR ORGANIZATION
Lashkar-e-Taiba: AN ISLAMIC TERROR ORGANIZATION
Palestine Liberation Front: AN ISLAMIC TERROR ORGANIZATION
Ansaru: AN ISLAMIC TERROR ORGANIZATION
Jemaah Islamiyah: AN ISLAMIC TERROR ORGANIZATION
Abdullah Azzam Brigades: AN ISLAMIC TERROR ORGANIZATION
AND A LOT MORE!!!!!!!
Think about it........ frown emoticon 20 signs that psychopath Muslims do:
1] Kill anyone who insults Islam or Mohamed-mad. (Koran.33; 57-61).
2) Kill all Muslims who leave Islam. (Koran.2;217/4;89/Bukhari.9;84-57).
3) Koran cannot be doubted. (Koran.2; 1).
4) Islam is the only acceptable religion. (Koran.3; 85).
5) Muslims must fight (jihad) to non-Muslims, even if they don't want to. (Koran.2; 216). 6) We the non-Muslims are pigs and apes. (Koran. 2;62-65/Koran.5;59-60/Koran.7;166). 7) We the non-Muslims cannot be friends with Muslims. (Koran.5; 51).

😎 Wethenon-MuslimsswornenemiesofMuslimsandIslam.(Koran.4;101).
9) We the non-Muslims can be raped as sex slave. (Koran.4; 3 & 24/5; 89/23; 5/33; 50/58; 3/70; 30).
10) We the non-Muslims the vilest of creatures deserving no mercy. (Koran.98; 6).j
11) Muslim must terrorized us (non-Muslims). (Koran.8; 12 &59-60/ Bukhari.4; 52; 220).
12) Muslims must strike terror into non-Muslims hearts. (Koran.8; 60).
13) Muslims must lie to us (non-Muslims) to strengthen and spread Islam. (Koran.3; 28? 16; 106).
14) Muslims are allowed to behead us (non_Muslims) (Koran.47; 4).
15) Muslims are guaranteed to go to heaven if they kill us (non-Muslims). (Koran.9; 111).
16) Marrying and divorcing pre-pubescent children is OK. (Koran.65; 4).
17) Wife beating is OK. (Koran.4; 34).
18) Raping wives is OK. (Koran.2; 223).
19) Proving rape requires 4 (four) male Muslim witnesses. (Koran.24; 13).
20) Muslims are allowed to crucify and amputate us (non-Muslims). Koran.8; 12/47; 4). 




Sunday, March 19, 2017

if people only knew how many different ways this invasive tech can be used

they would rise up and blow darpa off the planet,,, but these devices have been sent through out the population. Already... I keep getting hit in the stomach,,,, with a pointer sharp type of beam... it sticks in my stomach causing pain through out the day..the other night,,,, I had this beam with a round edge about the size of a small fist enter my body,,, coming in through the back of the couch and pushing against my left lung to expel all the air so it would make a funny rippling noise come out of my throat. this is why cheney is still alive,,, non invasive surgery. no blood loss, no trauma,,, works great. if I ever need surgery again I'm going to ask my surgeon to find it and use it or no go.My neck is a mess from the constant pulsing of the muscles,,, constant intense pain... and my head keeps twitching to the left,,, you know the frog and electricity effect on the muscles,,, all of the above is done long distance,,,, through walls. they sit outside in a car... when the cops got mad at me for dissing them for the 9/11 bullshit paid holiday, they body slammed me right there in the street,,, the nurse was out front talking to this guy,,, so she knew about it and exactly what he was going to do,,, then they pulsed me so that I almost ,,,not quite passed out.. the nurse went in and got a chair so I would n't fall again. they can pulse you and make you projectile vomiting and diarrhea  at the same time as you almost pass out lying on the floor trying to cool down... they have done that to me several times. Many women have complained of being raped by invisible forces... our perverted men folk at work...my first dream was of being fucked by a goat man,,, I didn't get to excited,,, I knew nothing of satanic symbols...I was on my knees head down when I woke up... If I ever meet Danny McKenna again ill kill him for all the shit he pulled on me,,, they take degenerates like that asshole and let him loose with these devices...Oh yeah holes in my skull and the concussion,, which was really having my skull split,,, then when I slept in my car they healed it and then sent me to the hospoital in  NH  for xrays  to see how it healed... fucking fucking assholes.. all of them,,, all the worst degenerate inclinations that man has ,,, has been let full out of the box with these devices...all of them. they can rape your wife while she lies next to you and you would never know it... thats how good and person specific these devices are...
As I sit here typing I'm getting zapped from David Diachisions house,,, to the back left side of my head... I sit facing the opposite side of my house, so that side of my head is always facing his house... I wish I had a shoulder rocket grenade that fuck would be first to go.
they threw mme down the stairs snapping my ankle in mid air. took pulses or beams and did surgery on my muscles to weaken them and make them painful..my let thumb has to be careful when picking up things that have any weight to them..
how dare these scum bags do what they are doing,,, this is genocide,,,population control,, the rich feel crowded. well, they depend on us for their care,,,, they can be reached...
im getting tired of complaining of all this,,, its not really meant as a complaint,, but hopefully this will last and I will protect this information so people will know , so I can bear witness against those who shredded all decency all culture, all manner of the rule of law, that which protects us all, even the rich, but they  shit on all of it.the gloves are off and anything goes... well fine that is their choice,,, as the saying goes,, they really have no idea what they are doing and the consequences of it all... I haven't heard of any assassinations,,, yet,,, but we shall see my hope is if they take Trump they take his whole cabinet especially his vp... that would be a horror show if he became president... a true horror show...I bet linda across the street the christian evangelical who zapped me is jumping for joy...jumping for jot...
I haven't heard to much about Sessions if he got kicked out or not...we shall see.how to fuck did we get here ,,, A silent Holocaust and all the fruit loops in the White House.

Tuesday, March 7, 2017

Infragard and me

I feel upset at times this community dislikes me because i ask things like,,, How do you know yo are being given nanotechnology,,, you can't see it or feel it,,, so how do you know? its bullshit,,, morgellens the same,,,, its bullshit,,,
but Ive been fighting this war so long Im sure I have PTSD and Im worn out which is what is wanted,,, they wear you down,, but I'm not given any credit,,, for instance I coined the phrase ,,, The silent Holocaust" and then this woman threw me off this list because I said that,,, she feels it is hers and thats bullshit,,
then because I ask questions about credibility of assaults,,, I want definite proof of what is said and chemtrails,,, who cares,,, get the targeting to stop then work on chemtrails....its a distraction.
focus in, derricks call last night was good all about infragard,,, a non profit,,, that surprised me,,,
InfraGard is a non-profit organization serving as a public-private partnership between U.S. businesses and the Federal Bureau of Investigation. The organization is an information sharing and analysis effort serving the interests, and combining the knowledge base of, a wide range of private sector and government members.[1] InfraGard is an association of individuals that facilitates information sharing and intelligence between businesses, academic institutions, state and local law enforcement agencies, and other participants dedicated to prevent hostile acts against the United States.[2] InfraGard's mutual nondisclosure agreements among its members (individuals) and the FBI promotes trusted discussions of vulnerabilities and solutions that companies and individuals may be hesitant to place in the public domain and provide access to additional threat information from the FBI.


this is from wikipedia
I've worked on fighting this shit for 21 years,,, and no one seems to give a shit,,,Ramola interviewed me but have not heard from her since,,,, she seemed amazed at my memory of all this , but its burned into my brain,,, I forget nothing,,, I do  not want to forget nothing,,,,I want this story told and told right from my perspective,,,you know,,, its gotta be told for future generations..and like the science fiction story,,, prison planet it has to be burnt in the consciousness of the future generations so they know what to look for when gov't get out of hand into a totalitarian state... so they can guard against it... guard against shit like infragard... brb  Infragard.org
well well well that was interesting and it seems that infragard fills the bill as far as the organization that is responsible for our targeting,,, terrorism is high on the list and we as targets are considered in the same class as terrorists. I saved all Anthony's or most all his emails that explains this all.


heart and health

yesterday I walked quickly up to the bus stop and was very startled to feel my heart racing,,, I think it was my heart rather than a beam as has been done in the past. this pulse to the lungs and eleven days in bed constantly being pulsed and beamed I think really took a tole on me...Im going to put several notes of different subjects here for my own reference,,
Ella who was an model and has a successful Talkshoe call at 141476 and has had some very interesting guests on she is working with Duncan and Kyle is working with Duncan also on shielding. I got real pissed at him years ago... and told him in so many words,,, how dare you,, sacrifice all of us for you. Since he states he has helped work on this technology he must know how to shield from this,,, I asked him why didn't he help us he said he was under orders,, a gag order and he would go to jail,,, I said so what.? so now he's helping Ella and Kyle with shielding.
At this date we have Trump for a president,,, to me he is a distraction,,, the real work is going on behind him with those appointed to head his cabinet... Sessions lied to congress about speaking with the Russians,,, it is thought that the Russians had something to do with the election  in favor of Trump..Trumo blames everything on Obama,, which to me is hysterical.
I email bill bunny and he pissed me off,,, he states he first found out about this community through Mangus Olsen, and I know I was the first to email him asking for his help.  He does not acknowledge THAT At all.. piss on him,,, I'm amazed,,,, Ella an intelligent woman,, Kirk Wiebe and Bill Binney all support Trump, Melinda Fee as well. I think there all nuts,,,, Kirk said he support deregulation,,,it will loosen up jobs,,, from what I understand coal filings can now be dumped . where I got the impression it was water but that may be scare tactics.. Trump is such a lying asshole you can't pin him down to anything and he knows it,,,, then the other side fights back,,, its a real threee ring circus..
Binney  and Wiebe think deregulation is a great thing and I think that is Trumps biggest asset to them. Of course Wiebe thinks abortion is from hell and I think he believes in god...Binney not to sure .



I went yesterday to the post office and sent to registered letters one to Jim Lehrer asking him to go public with dEW and what happened to me... I don't think he will , to much of it is his fault and one does not like to air dirty linen,,, I think that is why I go public,,, I have very little to hide if anything . I learned long ago not to do things that one is ashamed of and what I am ashamed of,,, I admit too.
I also sent the second registered letter to Paula Mountain of wen ham housing,,,, we spoke she said she did not get the letter from Kelly,,, not registered,,,,I mailed it myself.she said she was going to rent my apt. I could say nothing but I told her I was going to appeal so she knew I was still in the game...her letter stated the reason she did not rent to me was because of incomplete paperwork. Which was bullshit
Im surprised I have not had problems with my heart as it has been a target especially lately,, coming from above.
I noticed Dr. Katherine Horton has a list of TI who she monitors ,,, for check in because they are attacked,,, my name is not on the list... For some reason this targeting makes you stronger and healthier in some respects but then if your continuously hit it makes you worse.  Ive had cancer three times since all this began I thought it was because my mother had cancer,,, not what I had thought, she had lymphoma and sarcoma,, I had breast and uterine,,,both breasts.........at different times,,, one had 70% chance of developing in the right breast,,, the left was obvious,,,, I had STD at one point in my thirties,,,, so I feel that could be from that.





Ive been reading about INFRAGARD,,, a security company works with FBI,,, will relate more on it later after I read more..





Sunday, March 5, 2017

Control Orders the UK program as the same as the US program I think its called community policing

Control orders have been rebranded. Big problems remain

I haven't written in my blog in a long time,,,, I have mostly posted my emotions and

a lot of things done to me by the perps on Facebook and my hatred of what is being done to me.. For instance my grandson took me to costco,,,and I have had my car sabotaged at costco,,, twice,,,, so today james drove me and in the van next to us sitting quietly and almost without notice was a man and a woman... You could hear them though they were talking as I saw the woman's jaw move...I had a feeling this was sabotage again, and I was right,, because when we left... the car shook, the brakes in the back started squealing. Im very in tune of the sounds of a car and I have ridden in this one enough to know its normal sounds and these were not them... I mentioned it to james...its an older car but a pretty good one it gets you from A to Z. but the perps dont want me to have a car... because these fools think Im a model,,, explained in past blog posts,,, they want to increase public transport,,, they use the excuse of climate change,, but I think e push is because the rich want all poor people not to have cars because the rich feel the roads ae to crowded... and they are.. oh the success of Ford...anyway... thats what happened at Costo. James bought a TV his first and a game set of some sort... not sure what it is,,,
I told my story to Romola a journalist TI,,,, and she seemed interested,,, but upset by the email that has the name Guillottine in it,,,I wrote back not to be concerned it is a family legend we are supposed to be related... at least on my part by marriage. 
David Diachision is still very active as well as Bud,,,, I applied for an apt. in Wenham, I got the return letter yesterday but have not opened it yet ,, I will tomorrow,, I have a lot to do tomorrow for paperwork,,, It has been so cold here,,, 11degrees last night,,, but here it is March 4 and that will only be a memory...
I had my eye shot into yesterday ,, that was fun,,, first time for that,, and it has not worked right since... All the perps on the street plus drive bus are still very active.
I told ramolad@hushmail.com the whole story  of what happened it is the first time I ever did that. I think because I got mad,,, at Jim Lehrer,,, I also wrote him a letter about it,,, how he can live the good life when so many people are being killed over this directed energy weapons,,, I asked him many years ago,,, when this was still a small community to go public he refused,,, he said if he did he would be targeted and even demonstrated him being shot in the head on his program ,,, he looked like he did get shot. but still this is like Duncan with his supposedly gag order not to speak out about shielding yet he's forking with Ella on that... I chastised him quite a while ago about it,, how can he be quiet when so many lives are being destroyed and people are being driven to suicide with Dew and he's obeying a gagorder, them he secretly is working with Ella...?
You wonder about it,,, why Ella,,, she's late to these calls. granted she does have some good calls with some good guests but many many have gone before her to lay the gournwork for her efforts. 

I dont' think Im jealous,, I guess I just feel unappreciated,,, i opened my call and its name Ti's technology and devices, I opened it because Derrick at the time had all these looneys on! It was pretty bad thats why I left his call if I complained about the bullshit he muted me and Ella does the same thing,,, 
The reminds me,,, I don't understand this at all, Bill Binney, Kirk Wiebe,,, Ella and several other ,,, Karen Stewart another rNSA whistleblower support trump... I think its all about deregulation,,, that they think means jobs... but jobs for who?
One fears all these millenaries in DC walking away with a fortune look what Clinton did to Haiti,,,, that was unconscionable,,, ripped off a lot of money. anyway I asked Karen Stewart about this increased military funding,,, I mean billions more,,, we know the security companies 
and the prisons get a big bonus as well, for the security companies feed into the prisons and the hospitals... I still have security follow me as well as medical,, a pox on their house. I asked Keren does she think that this increased funding will see an uptick in targeting, she said no... she said with this president things will change and I think she's a fool,,,, because Romola wrote a letter to Trump,,, and I asked her about that,,, she said Trump maybe never read the letter,,, ok ill agree with that,, but Romola got her ass kicked,,, Katherine Horton another  woman who is active in exposing these crimes also got sheit beat out of her and at the same time I was in bed for 11 days. I got popped in the chest,,, I think was acoustics and as I have noticed the body reacts as if a blow or a assault has happened anyway my lungs reacted very badly and this pop was right at the junction of my lungs... 
it was awful,,, the kept hitting me in the stomach and I would cough and sneeze and pee my pants,, I ran out of pants and they hit me in the bladder which stunk my urine up. so it was a fun 11 days...The pulse came through my kitchen window which is right across the street from Chris Yaikus's house who installs video and audio components,,,,,  yup..Who in the past trained his teenage step son on how to harrass someone using acoustic devices... I wrote about that in past posts. 

Ramola listened to my story about Jim Lehrer, as I said this is the first time I really told the whole story and it involved Catherine Austin Fitts,,,, Jim Lehrer made sure I left her house,, I did get spooked,,, quiet little town,, no fence around the house,,, no  near neighbor,,, no street lights,, it was really dark no curtains... it was spooky so it didn't take much to make me leave. I never told Catherine Austin Fitts  any of these details,, but this was how my relationship with Jim Lehrer,,, Judy Woodruff, Gwen Ifill came later,  Margaret Warner,, took over when Jim left and she hated me,,, I think she was responsible for a lot of the shitty things done to me,,, she was vindictive instead of blaming herself ,,, that bitch blamed me... One of these days I have to write that up.... so that is not lost as to why our relationship soured.. and it surely did. it went south big time.... not because of me,,, I was doing what my nature was,,, but that was not politics which I little understood at the time,,, one never understand unknown circumstances  that happen. unforeseen circumstance that happen....I didn't talk but little about the Lehrer newshour because I wanted protect them,,, from what ? I don't know but I think they used to put a gag order on me somehow...This is how Lehrer set up our communication,,,, I wrote to them ,, online,,, at first it was letters,,,,and they would do a show for me pertaining to some of my comments about a subject. how nieve  I was ,,, I thought they were my friends.. and they weren't. I don't trust anybody now after what I went through. fuck em all. So after I went online we communicated daily. five days a week,,, I think Jim got tired of me... and thats ok.I thought he was stupid.  so I guess we are even,,, oh yeah Ray Suaraz also knew what was going on as well. I shall in the near future write about all of it and like Jim Lehrer stated no one will believe me and that is ok

I know what happened and the only shred of evidence is the court case of Patty sari,,, when Lehrer news house sued her to keep my court case in court... she acquiesced .. I had lots of evidence on my old monster of a mac but they made me throw it away,,,, destroying all evidence of our relationship....I was on Compuserv,,, now defunct I think... that was my server. Anyway Jim knew about DEW back them he thought the perps because he used them as well drove me out of Tn. from Catherine austin Fitts house, and he knew I would feel bad not having completed the job she asked me to do and I would feel guilty,,, so he zapped and chased me out of Tn,,, using perps,,,,he felt what I was doing was beneath me,,, he did not know that my mind needed the physical exercise,,, and the mind needed the rest from thinking,, to just doing.. He did not understand why I was packing her house up, he told me via his program that night which I watched in CAF house,,, that people were paid thousands of dollars to do what I was doing...I didn't care about the money,,, I needed the exercise and the blankness of it. I was just overwhelmed by all this mind control and where my life at gone and what was happening to me,, just the sheer basic none thinking was a relief for me. They used to pup me full of energy and them ask me questions,,, all night every night,,, you get burnt out the brain goes haywire over it. They don't care as I was told over and over I was expendable,,, DC feels we are all expendable and if you think about it it is true,,, we are ,, we are only a part of a river of consciousness through  the centuries.... After the Elian Gonzales fiasco that is when things turned bad for me... when Gore lost.. but looking back Gore no matter what would of won, that was all set,, Bush would of won no matter what the vote was. No matter what happened,,, I wonder if he was told to back down or suffer the consequences, murder,, if he did not... the excuse was the country would be torn apart.  Like now under Trump,,, Gore should of stayed in the electoral votes I think  like with Trump were bought off. because Hillary won by millions,, three I think as did Al Gore but as I said long ago this was a coup de etat and Trump is part of it. A lot of the information I received about all this came from Lehrer, it had to have been,, like the JEC file that explained a lot, and the program with Diane Sawyer , the article in the Boston Globe about the man who complained of not being allowed to sleep because the people wanted his house...I think all that came from Lehrer so I have much to thank them for... but you know I was so drugged , even living here I was so drugged I could burn myself and not feel it and while I slept the perps would heal it,,, overnight,,, after all I went through I realized how powerful these weapons are, how all controlling,,, how terrifying to be on the bad end of the stick,,,, I kept begging Jim to go public,,, even then in the late nineties I intuitively knew how dangerous a path  we were on. Inward was a scream at the top of my lungs at how terrified I was ,not for me, but for everyone else. That people had no knowledge of what was gong on, Terrified. of the knowledge I had been given. well here we are,,,, and the profiling and harassment has increased,, some say millions,,,, I say NSA has profiled everyone at least that is the goal,,, other countries so mistakes won't be made if we have to war with them, cultural mistakes.... and I believe if everyone is profiled than everyone will be targeted in one way or another.... that remains to be seen.....time to stop getting tired but I will continue to write in my blog,,, this life is to important to not just down what I know, about what happened now in the past and what tomorrow will bring.... History will bear my tale out... 


Wenham housing refused an apt. for me,,, Paula Mountain is her name that was fun, I had a feeling she was just going through the motions anyway,,,, to many signs pointed the way to her real intent. refusal of housing