WHAT HAVE I LOST DUE TO TARGETING

I lost years of life, money, apt. job,,, happiness, security, friends, relatives, credibility, function in life,,time with my grandchildren productive years at work.  Many productive years at work, ,

I shall add to the list as other things occur to me.

I had hoped in my older mature adult years that  I would be a mature member of this tribe I call the human race, respected for my insight and years of wisdom,, seems like no one cares.   I think the wisdom I have experienced is important. The trauma has sidetracked that image of myself.  That secure
image of myself in my life,,, they swept that all away..

I lost my job,, here is how it happened,  I was being severely sleep deprived,,all Ti's it seems start with this, it softens up the target.  I was targeted , even though the term had not been invented for us yet.
I was so sleep deprived, I was a walking zombie this also gives the appearance if you are dizzy, disorientated, disheveled. I was a mess. I remember I needed sleep so bad , I thought I could do this to escape. I went to my work having a key, I always opened in the morning, so this Sunday I drove there and went in and grabbed someones coat and fell asleep.

Scott Burns had followed me there, I saw him turn around in the parking lot and leave.. I slept almost all day, until El came in to do some work on Sunday, she was kinda upset so I left..I was exhausted, but that was just enough sleep for me to recover from the passed out state I was in.

Scott Burns who was employed by Eastman gelatin came back and let me know he was there. Who was I going to tell, who would help me, no one, and they knew it.
He was out front in all jeans,, jacket, pants,,tall thin good looking, he stood in front of the beauty parlor and was looking through to the back of it. I was going to the bank as was my habit during lunch, I recognized him. The back door to all the shops was left open during the day, I think he gained entrance that way, we also had this wicked tall ladder that went right to the ceiling in this hallway for the workmen. He found out somehow we only had an alarm in the front the back was not alarmed.  He went up the ladder and into the clinic, he turned open all the aspirators in all the rooms, so that when you turned on our compressor, a huge compressor it sounded like a jet engine going off and caught El's and my attention, for we knew all would be shut off before the compressor was shut down ,,scared the shit out of us.. I knew he was sabotaging my work and he used to use frequencies through the wall as I worked. After a time I got so stressed, still sleep deprived, apt. invasion , car sabotaged,,,it was just stressing me out everywhere I went as it was meant to do..It worked.

I quit, but as with anything after  all this, I think this was mind controlled as well..I also knew with the entrance of the office and the compressor that things for my boss would get very bad , in order to get me to quit, on some level I knew that would happen. I loved my boss and quit so I would not have to put her and the others through the harassment I had been subjected too, I knew Burns and co. was capable of . I want to make sure people whose read this understand I loved my job I would of never left it, loved my boss and even though I used the term quit , I was FORCED to leave, constant harassment, DEW, and Scott Burns constant presence. I want to say this again I was forced, FORCED to leave my job by Scott Burns without a doubt , he's the same asshole who followede to the Grand Canyon, and he is now 12 Nov 14 he has been in this neighborhood for three days visiting frank Anderson , cherie Rathbuns  , and david Diachision staying at each house for a very long time. 

 I loved my job and would of never quit, I finally found a boss I had an allegiance to..I loved her she was Chinese and was very good to us. She even asked me back after I quit. I worked hard for her and I was good at my job, not only for me, but for her, I wanted to become a manager. I thought maybe I could under her. I worked as a temp for a while, then stopped doing that, I let my license elapse,, mind controlled. I was put on disability because basically I was disabled,, I was a total mess.

This was not going away, I tried everything and nothing worked to make them stop,,NOTHING. It is ongoing today. I am in a program, you cannot fight it, it is covert, you cannot fight covert. It does not exist. If you do not talk about it, it does not exist, that is what the perps (perpetrators) say, and lots of TI's know this, this is why we have to speak out,,all the time especially now that our numbers are increasing exponentially for families are targeted.

This is how you dismantle a life piece by piece.

WEAPONS and DEVICES AND MORE TO COME

I want to talk about a few of these weapons that I actually saw,,, One looked like a blow dryer,, I could not get a good look at the back of it,, but it had a tube that was pointed out the window and glowed hot red.  It was a small intense frequency and I picked up on it when it started and when it ended. It was laid on the top of a desk of sort,, bureau, and was pointed out the open window.  Not at my house but parallel to my window,,, I felt the vibration as long as it was on, at first no one was in sight but then the perp, and he was a perp came and sat in the window  and then he turned It off. The frequency I felt
stopped.

The second device I saw was in NH, again it was a low fine frequency,,, I had a hard time locating the source  at first, but stood in the middle of the room with eyes closed and slowly,,very slowly turned in a circle and eventually after several turns and minutes decided where it was coming from. I lived in NH at a relatives camp and the street was dark as only it can get,, pitch black without any light at all. No moon. I was alone.
I followed the frequency down the street to a hovel,, that is the only word to describe this small house.
Within a couple and their three wild children lived.
As I approached the light was very bright from her front window. I stood about 10 to 15 feet away from the window in the dark shadows with a clear view. On the table was a device, approximately  5 by 8 inches,, an inch high, black plastic with rounded corners and it had a green screen, 1/3 of the upper part of the device.  It lay flat on the table and no one was present,, so I stood for a few minutes in the deep shadow and the woman, name of Vicki came out of the dark within and sat at the table. She looked at the device, jumped up, slammed down the shade and that was it. I think she saw my presence on her screen outside in the dark. I think what she had was a locator that could see through walls.

I can't remember if the frequency went off or not. I only know that after that she, he, and the kids were afraid of me,, I think because of what she did, she warned them to be careful of me,..
I think it was a locator and could tell where I was.

After that her children would run for the house whenever they saw me.

I didn't mind.

HUD 3

I lived in a HUD apt. loved my apt.  What I did not know is that HUD had been changed to a police state,,,this was a criticism made by Mario? Or Andrew? Cuomo, about Susan Gaffney who ran HUD,, that she had changed HUD into a police state.

 I did not know  living in   a HUD builidng, that HUD had considered, dissidents and activists, that  had been profiled by psychiatrists,  as vermin.  To be gotten rid of, HUD in 99 when all this happened had acoustic and other DEW at that time.   Configured by maintenance and carried out by maintenance as boots on the ground.

If you want to know all about HUD,, a good person  to inquire to is Catherine Austin Fitts who also has a website. she did an expose on HUD and was targeted, they asked her to come back.. I do not know what happened after that but I think she is independent at this time,I believe her targeting stopped,,why or how,,I do not know, , but check that out if you wish.  Update me. I met Catherine Austin  Fitts through the internet, I'm sure the emails are somewhere,, she enlisted me to paint her

house and move her, so she told me where she lived and I went to her house and broke it down for her.

What a nice sweet town she lived in,, I loved it there, I cannot remember the name it does escape me,,,I am surprised I remember as much as I do, after what I have been through.  So bear with me,,, I took her house apart , all except one bed, I could not take it apart.  I was doing this more or less for super cheap,, my perps knew it , they made me leave after I found the money she had left for me.300 dollars, my perps felt I had fulfilled the amount and it was a lot of work,. I had finished my work,,, it got to be night and I was alone and scared,,so I left..

 I felt safer on the road, and I know if CAF reads this and I know she who was targeted that she will understand,, my perp did not want me there. They made me leave,,,and fucking beat me,, beat me all the way out of the fucking state to ensure I would not feel guilty and go back which they knew I would do. I do not steal and this was to close for my conscious to suffer, I would of gone back but was prevented from doing so. My perps felt my worth was more than offered and they were right,,,I was worth more than offered. Even though I did pack all day.

When I lived at 50 Warren st. Peabody , Ma.  we had flower boxes built into our apt.  building,, full of debris, never cared for,, I thought I would put some flowers in the  beds, I told my assistant landlord about this and her reaction was very hostile,,, I was surprised,,free flowers to make our building better the office always looked like a million bucks but our building right next door always looked dirty and dumpy, so I decided to take out a petition to have flowers planted, so I took my little clipboard and went to see if anyone would sign,,not one person signed but I did have one strange reaction from one women , a warning,, she curled her finger over my clipboard and said,,I quote"Bad things happen to people who do this", my reaction was,,,hey "I live in the US. of A what could happen to me",, little did I know I had given myself away, profiled by the shrinks as a dissident and an activist,, a petition is a signature of a dissident and activist, I did not know that,,, but they did.. profiled and slotted.

HUD had a program Operation Safe Home ,,I do not know if it is ongoing, but it is local , state and fed police that raid big housing projects for rapists, killers , drug dealers and so on. After the raid is over the landlord and staff , including maintenance can alert everyone to tenants who show signs of the above,, also violence is on the list, drug dealing , etc.

This program  was affiliated with the medical institutions.  Here is how it worked ,,pretty simple really. Anyone put on this list was forced into hospital with DEW,,directed energy weapons,, this alerted the hospitals  as to who these people were. The person was then forced into a locked down ward and evaluated for violent tendencies,, and diagnosed, as with all shrinks they of course would find something wrong with you even  if you were normal. that is why when I was evaluated for violence at MGH in Boston by a doctor,,shrink name of Allan Walcott, his job, a gov't job was to fly around the country at taxpayer expense evaluating people for violent tendencies,,

gee they missed Sandyhook,Virginia tech and others,,gee guess they were looking in the wrong direction,,, I was female tiny, older , scared shitless , and shooter are generally young, male, white and middle class, upper middle,, oh excuse me Virginia tech was oriental. Seems like they didn't know where to look. Fucking assholes.. Stupid fucking assholes. The experience in the emergency room was so fun,,,, I think I will save that for another blog post, this was the method used. A dumping ground for HUD and all HUD's buddies.

I was found low violent,, Walcott was wrong I am in reality a non violent person,, but anyone you abuse  enough, you hurt them enough, you can change that someone into a very very nasty person..

( Some men must of been really beaten as children to turn them into  women beaters as they do, but it is sex,,you intimidate, you subjugate , next time sex is easier,  without to much trouble,, it's all a mind game.. sex as the great driver. Oppression and subjugation for women has always been part of our lifes for all of our history,  
Many in our community believe that the killing of all those children at the school Sandyhook, was done by gov't. in order to be able to confiscate weapons,,, I have no belief in this , I put it away till proof is established.)

When your name is put on this HUD program for whatever reason,, you are monitored, outpatient is cheaper than inpatient. This is how I ended up as a targeted individual,, through HUD , through Torigian.   My landlord was BF with Torigian, you know the good old boy network, Torigian used this as a dumping ground for anyone he wanted, and I wonder how many he went after, before me,,, I heard rumors he did this to some cops , maybe this is why he was in office for years,,, 23,, till he died.

When I was in the meeting with Torigian, he asked me where I lived, so I told him 50 Warren St. a huge HUD complex , when he heard my response,  he gave off with a very strange reaction,,, doing a long multi noted OOOOOOOOOOO, very strange for a grown man but he was not the most mature man I have ever met.  I think it was a verbal wringing of his hands in glee because he knew exactly what he could do and the people who would do it for him.

 Scott Burns is my next subject and Danny McKenna also.