I felt optimistic,,,,how can that be after all I have been through,,there is no way out for me except through an early what would be for me would be an early death... I was in real good shape when all this started.
So an early death is probably right around the corner,, I am going downhill fast,,now I am dragging my left leg from the pulsing,,,sever pain,,,, they are making sure I do feel the pain.....My memory fails me,, can't remember shit.
Oh yeah I told everyone who read my blog that I was a modell...just to remind you,, a model is someone who designates trends..... on a bell curve the people who are within the first 100 of a trend to start... I am within that group always have been.....
This all started with water,,The meeting with Torigian was about water, and toxins and land,,, momstly our watershed was my concern.. we now have droughts
algae bloom in one of the great lakes ,,really big one,,
Toledo has been told not to drink it's water from Toxins,,, I think this is related...I have to post it here, I do not know if toxins are related to algae blooms but I think so..
Anyway,,,,a huge fish kill off the pacific coast,,,anchovies am important element of our food chain,,,everything eats anchovies,,including us,,,,so I have got to go chase down these storied...brb
I wrote this on my facebook for the New York times column about Shiva, vishnu and one other.
I have not read this all, I wish they had included the goddess of death,Kali so prominent in our lives, all religion is of death. Kali drinker of blood she is within us all. It is said Gandhi claimed that Hitler was the reincarnation of Kali,,,the attitude.
Not physical as most of us hope,,,to come back as ourselves but our humanity and it's philosophy,,,
I think it is our philosophy ,,our human philosophy that is definitely manifested within us, all that explains who we are,,, that is what is considered reincarnation as far as I can see.
All of this humanity and our different proclivities has been documented by our ancients,,,The indians on both continents and the Chinese who go back 5 thousand years,,, they had paper and wrote all about us so long ago,, We have not changed in attitude in all that time.
Such a wonderful accomplishment,, to bad they are very strange. Like communism,, maybe Mao thought because they looked alike,,, they would act alike,or think alike the hive mentality, or be forced to act alike,,,We anglo saxons all look different. With anglo saxons,,, we never know what color our hair will be upon birth,,,, but the chinese and Japanese all have black hair and small and light skinned,, for them to have a blond baby is grounds for divorce,,
But all that we are as human attributes has been documented by the wise one's so long ago.. They took the time to observe..
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I have not read this all, I wish they had included the goddess of death,Kali so prominent in our lives, all religion is of death. Kali drinker of blood she is within us all. It is said Gandhi claimed that Hitler was the reincarnation of Kali,,,
not physical as most of us hope,,,to come back as us,,, I think it is our philosophy ,,our human philosophy that is definitely manifested within us, all that explains who we are,,,
All of this humanity and our different proclivities has been documented by our ancients,,,The indians on both continents and the Chinese who go back 5 thousand years,,, they had paper and wrote all about us so long ago,, We have not changed in attitude in all that time.
Such a wonderful accomplishment,, to bad they are very strange. Like communism,, maybe Mao thought because they looked alike,,, they would act alike,or think alike the hive mentality, or be forced to act alike,,,We anglo saxons all look different. With anglo saxons,,, we never know what color our hair will be upon birth,,,, but the chinese and Japanese all have black hair and small and light skinned,, for them to have a blond baby is grounds for divorce,,
But all that we are as human attributes has been documented by the wise one's so long ago.. They took the time to observe..
Tuesday, August 5, 2014
weird shit going on
yeah I saw my blog opened up on my ipod right before my eyes,,, it is either the cops,,, cherie Rathbun
,,, or my family,,, I know ipods can connect with other ipods and both Gillian and Devin both have ipods..So it can be one or all.
it is tough to keep privacy in this world of hackers and the kids are good enough to hack,,last night was nice, normal for the first time in a long time. This morning I woke to my left leg being pulsed ,, they have made it so bad I am dragging it,,,very painful and if you move in a normal manner and twist it in any way,,,let me tell you the the intense pain gets your attention...like nothing else,,, these weapons,,,these pulses are so very dangerous,,, they can take out your life in a heartbeat,,but also torture you to death,,,like now,, a slow kill,, I wrote a txt to david mcgeney the other day who is the one that informed Cherie about my blog,,, I didn't know he was an asshole,, I told him about cherie and her drug dealer boyfriend Steve Major who is always walking around this neighoborhood,,,ALWAYS NOW he is back.. so I told McGeney about her relationship with Steve how they used to go behind the garage and smoke pot,,no big deal,,, but still the pot calling the kettle black,,,lol...she called the police on james sunday,,, because he was drunk and having a fight with me and Kelly,,he wanted to go and get high and I could not access my ATM so no money,,, he already bought vodka to swill down.. he feels he needs it to focus and kill the boredom...so he was out front yelling and kelly was adding to the mix and Cherie called the cops on him,,,I do not think Kelly did ,,,with the pot plant raid I think Kelly had enough of cops,,,they just gave James a ride home which was good and surprised me...the state police guy was nice too, maybe the cops are taking the hint we are tired of being shot and killed for nothing...maybe that is why,,so many stories of people being beaten up, killed and arrested for nothing,,, a war on citizens and if it continued there would be food for those who wish to take over the gov't a revolution, so the police are fueling their own demise..their lives are on the line....and ours...pretty scary stuff.
On facebook one of the Muslim guys posted a picture of a kid twelve or so who had the whole lower part of his face blown off from the Israeli attacks on Gaza,,he was just sitting there,,,from his nose down eh was one bloody mess and stringing of tissue , another picture of a kid dead cut in half,,,horrible but their lives are not in vain,,,children ,,, just kids,,,life sucks all around,,from this urban neighborhood to gaza,,,Kali is on the move once again if indeed she ever does stop, the goddess and drinker of blood.
Also my bank is difficult nothing works for me through them,,, to access my accounts online,, or even use my ATM cards,,, what a pain in the ass.....Anything in Peabody to me is suspect. That is why I fear if this summons is to a Peabody court,,, I will get my ass reamed because of it,,, Torigian's family's influence is like an octopus in this town it is everywhere...EVERYWHERE..
AND IF they are not influential they use a negative narrative to enhance and solidify their claims typical perp behavior and tactics...
Oh yeah bigger issues in this country about water....the farmers runoff is polluting the great lakes and they are having huge problems with these blood red algae blooms...Toledo Ohio has been told not to drink their water,,, because of toxins,, and on the west coast they had a huge kill of anchovies,, a very important fish in the fish chain,, millions of species depend on these prolific little fish for food,,, I have read that the anchovy fish kill had inundated the harbor of a town,,, will go back and try to post here. I would try to figure out why all of them are dead,,,nuke juice from japan? or other means,,,, they are trying to get rid of the fish because it will bother the tourists,,,fuck the tourist,, how about nuke water? And of course there is the major drought in the west,,,no one seems to have much water in certain areas.. Stacia's son came to visit from Houston? and I asked him about the drought,,,he didn't seem to concerned and he said he watered his lawn without any problems...and giggled stupidly. So it is hard to fathom sometimes,,,perception is everything..
,,, or my family,,, I know ipods can connect with other ipods and both Gillian and Devin both have ipods..So it can be one or all.
it is tough to keep privacy in this world of hackers and the kids are good enough to hack,,last night was nice, normal for the first time in a long time. This morning I woke to my left leg being pulsed ,, they have made it so bad I am dragging it,,,very painful and if you move in a normal manner and twist it in any way,,,let me tell you the the intense pain gets your attention...like nothing else,,, these weapons,,,these pulses are so very dangerous,,, they can take out your life in a heartbeat,,but also torture you to death,,,like now,, a slow kill,, I wrote a txt to david mcgeney the other day who is the one that informed Cherie about my blog,,, I didn't know he was an asshole,, I told him about cherie and her drug dealer boyfriend Steve Major who is always walking around this neighoborhood,,,ALWAYS NOW he is back.. so I told McGeney about her relationship with Steve how they used to go behind the garage and smoke pot,,no big deal,,, but still the pot calling the kettle black,,,lol...she called the police on james sunday,,, because he was drunk and having a fight with me and Kelly,,he wanted to go and get high and I could not access my ATM so no money,,, he already bought vodka to swill down.. he feels he needs it to focus and kill the boredom...so he was out front yelling and kelly was adding to the mix and Cherie called the cops on him,,,I do not think Kelly did ,,,with the pot plant raid I think Kelly had enough of cops,,,they just gave James a ride home which was good and surprised me...the state police guy was nice too, maybe the cops are taking the hint we are tired of being shot and killed for nothing...maybe that is why,,so many stories of people being beaten up, killed and arrested for nothing,,, a war on citizens and if it continued there would be food for those who wish to take over the gov't a revolution, so the police are fueling their own demise..their lives are on the line....and ours...pretty scary stuff.
On facebook one of the Muslim guys posted a picture of a kid twelve or so who had the whole lower part of his face blown off from the Israeli attacks on Gaza,,he was just sitting there,,,from his nose down eh was one bloody mess and stringing of tissue , another picture of a kid dead cut in half,,,horrible but their lives are not in vain,,,children ,,, just kids,,,life sucks all around,,from this urban neighborhood to gaza,,,Kali is on the move once again if indeed she ever does stop, the goddess and drinker of blood.
Also my bank is difficult nothing works for me through them,,, to access my accounts online,, or even use my ATM cards,,, what a pain in the ass.....Anything in Peabody to me is suspect. That is why I fear if this summons is to a Peabody court,,, I will get my ass reamed because of it,,, Torigian's family's influence is like an octopus in this town it is everywhere...EVERYWHERE..
AND IF they are not influential they use a negative narrative to enhance and solidify their claims typical perp behavior and tactics...
Oh yeah bigger issues in this country about water....the farmers runoff is polluting the great lakes and they are having huge problems with these blood red algae blooms...Toledo Ohio has been told not to drink their water,,, because of toxins,, and on the west coast they had a huge kill of anchovies,, a very important fish in the fish chain,, millions of species depend on these prolific little fish for food,,, I have read that the anchovy fish kill had inundated the harbor of a town,,, will go back and try to post here. I would try to figure out why all of them are dead,,,nuke juice from japan? or other means,,,, they are trying to get rid of the fish because it will bother the tourists,,,fuck the tourist,, how about nuke water? And of course there is the major drought in the west,,,no one seems to have much water in certain areas.. Stacia's son came to visit from Houston? and I asked him about the drought,,,he didn't seem to concerned and he said he watered his lawn without any problems...and giggled stupidly. So it is hard to fathom sometimes,,,perception is everything..
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