Bud siad about my parenting

Bud and I had an argument we txt,, really and he said something I thought strange,,, he mentioned my  parenting,,,He never said anything about my parenting before,,so here is why,,,today his family is having a dinner party for mothers day over to his mothers sisters house.... I was not invited...
That is what all the parenting remark was about,,, Mother’s Day. Yeah the perps did a number on me in my later years...
Kelly for some reason has told people I was cruel to her,,, I never hit her in her life,, except a few weeks ago when she attacked me. I gave as well as I got...she won’t fuck with me again,, James thought I was weak to we had a little contest and he was surprised as well... they smell weakness.
when my ankle was broke by the perps,,, she would come in and demand with threatening gestures for my Van keys,,, I didn’t want her to use it,,, she drove it like a sports car...that old girl had a lot of miles in her, but Kelly thought she looked shabby,, and she wanted to go get drunk with April,, I figured that out later, April because of her life and her accident turned into a drunk,, kelly because of her fracture that this fat girl fell on during volleyball,,, discovered pain pills, April I think introduced her to booze,,,
Kelly was telling others of my bad parenting,,, one christmas Joe and Kris were up,, and I got the impression that Kris thought I was a bad parent as Kelly had maligned me,, it was to get sympathy,,, thats what she wanted... sympathy... oh poor Kelly,, she’s a little bit on the nutty side, as is Bud... so I said to Kelly what was the name of the restaurant we used to go to for Sunday brunch ,,, not every Sunday but couple of times a month we went out for brunch,,, then the beach all day... life was hard for them.. they went looking for trouble not bright enough to walk the other way,, I seemed to have been born with more common sense than many... especially my kids...so I asked Kelly what was the name of the restaurant,, and she yelled across the room to my delight,, ,The Old Ox,,, lovely little restaurant in the back,, curved brick walls,,, lovely plants and skylights,, nice booths a charming place,, and they loved the Texas french toast,, I had a spinach salad with coconut and bacon dressing was it good... very good.....we spent a couple of hours there enjoying each other and the meal... The Zoo or roller skating in balboa park was next,,, or the beach,,, usually Friday I did not date at all, I took them to the video arcade,,no one at that time had computers or video games in the home,,, just in these fancy arcades,, I used to play too, my favorite was tempest,,, kelly loved , I think the round things that ate everything,,, Iforgot,, Danielle I don’t know.. this was Friday nights for us...
I worked,,, then when kelly met buddy at  16-17 she disappeared,, from my life,, I was trying to get my degree to be able to enjoy life more,, with them of course, but she was into the boyfriend as they all do.. and I saw little of her,, and after I bought her her car , she was really gone,, I spent the time with James and Adam... who were born a few years later,, James was born in May and I graduated from school in June,,,I bought Dan the bunk beds and matching bureau for the boys cost a thousand and a thousand for Kelly’s car she sold it years later for a thousand. I think it was a Volkswagon,
Not new but in good shape,, she used it well up until she sold it, when she got her inheritance from her father, I bought that for her from the inheritance from my father.  So thats it,, fuck you kelly for being such a asshole and siding with Buddy thinking this pleases him,, it doesn’t,, it just makes you out that much more of a fucking asshole...to go against your blood.. never forgive you for that kelly,, I only can attribute your behavior as the elevator does not go to the top floor. In other words you and Bud deserve each other... retards. After everything you did to me and Bud,, I still love you,, despite your foolish actions... I know you hurt Jake,,, I know you went after him when you told me it was ok to leave him on the deck with you... you and Bud took off,, you know what you did, you were no where to be found,,, and Jake was crippled,,, I was very surprised when you told me it was ok to leave him on the deck,,,, completely out of character but in character for Bud.. I hope he never focus you over,, because I know he would... he’s an asshole...just like you.
love mom

1 May 16,,,,

This is in reply to Tyrone Dew ,, another TI.

I would like to but at this time I have ten dollars in my pocket. As you know TIS do not live large . I could send you twenty Tuesday , I know it isn't much but as you know every little bit helps ,

 oh yeah TEDs is by invitation only. I wanted to go before TED which is a organization that has speakers from all over the world on different subjects... I approached him to speak and he agreed and I just found out it is by invitation only.

I'm also hit with sonic bullets. My DEW has been mostly sonic and a spark gap device and of course micro pulses. I believe modified cell phones with an Android app is used , which one I don't know , and modified Nintendo- Xbox game cubes. I know the Nintendo with a black box addition is used in my case. The man across the street , a Chris Yaikus installs commercial audio and Video equipment he and his stepson are ground zero for DEW for me. I. Actually saw his son pulsing my house where I slept. The boy, no more than 15,, jumped his four foot back road fence,, walked down between the wii house I mentioned below and her garage,,, I will put a picture here later today, and was in a distinctive costume,, he stopped pulsing went back to his house over the fence and within a minute or two came out the front door. He had on the same costume that I had seen between the buildings... He also has a spark gap device and he set it out front of his steps on his house,,, I was getting hit,, they use through wall radar to hone in on your position, to make sure they hit the target..I got up to go out and see if I could claim the device, when I went out to the front of our house across from his house, the son was just going in the front door and the spark gap stopped.

Years ago I was getting slammed as I am now and I complained to a friend of mine, he sent the cops over to the house that I was getting hit from , , the cops questioned  him , his son was home from college and it was a game, I was getting hit with. The game was called CALL TO DUTY. After the cop visit it stopped . This happened before the local cops started to get involved as well. 

I have not checked yet but think this house  may be active again. 

I  know Wii was involved  from Cheries house, having seen the actual spark leave the handset fly across the street and hit my house. The boy was playing his Wii on his back enclosed big windows porch, the blinds were up and the  spark from the handset hit the TV at the end of the porch nearest my house ,,,took a "90 degree " turn from the TV and flew over to my house. I told the mother and it never reoccurred . What Was in my kitchen to attract this hot burning spark, I do not know. but I know I was also being hit with this , as often as he played the game.. So it was a horrific time for me.

Many speak of the hive mind and online gaming with many taking part around the world in one game could be likened to this hive perp mind theory. I will donate Tuesday. 

Barbara