Punishment 2

I was the one who told Clinton to send Elian Gonzales back to cuba,,, no one would believe me,,, and thats ok,,,i was friends with the people on the Lehrer news hour,,,, I started writing to them in 1993,,, and in 95 I went online which ruined everything,, the internet  is to quick to put deep thought into,, I mean really worry over an idea to try and figure out the unforeseen circumstances. but then we will have computers do it for us and our brains will rust,,, the machines will become conscious and take over the world .. ala Terminator,, as we trip right down the path,,, Right now WE are arming Vietnam,, ARMING VIETNAM, so they can stand off China’s aggression in the S. China sea.

It is amazing,,, how things within a few short years go topsy turvy,,,AMAZING...SOUNDS  good to me,,, we cannot afford to send people to China to fight directly and those that live their know about Japanese and Chines tyranny. Hell their all despotic crazy,,, look at Laos, Cambodia, N. Korea,, that will be on China’s side... holy shit,,,this is quite a war brewing,,, the Muslims think we are the enemy... I got news for them...Rule the world,, who wants to rule the world?  amazing.


One of the things that Judy, Margaret,,,Jim and the others didn’t understand,, was I was a mom,, first and foremost,,, since Danielle was born,, they always came first.. no matter what I did..(Danielle used to get puzzled by some of my actions,,, and then later when the plot had thickened and I got to what I wanted she saw the reason for my actions... it could of been anything) She would know what I am talking about...I remember her remarking on it once,,, she said,,, “Oh that’s why you did that.”!But that is why elaian was sent back to Cuba because of my suggestion.. They must of thought it good at the time,,, except for the Florida cubans,,, they were enraged at the time... but it did work out for the best,,, Cuba is now open,, and that give back to Cuba was a turning point. Things changed in attitude with Castro. from then on ...,, I thought I should put down all that happened so that the story is straight,,,
I got bored,, bored with work,, bored with non thinking,, so I decided to look into  and learn about something I had no idea,, years ago I had read that the nuns did not became Alzheimer's  ridden because they kept the gray cells ticking,,, they learned to play the piano at the age of 90 so it kept the gray cells working. I thought well lets look into something that I know nothing about,, having a civics class in high school seemed to be it,, oh except stories of washington and jefferson... No clue about the house or senate or how gov’t was structured,, I don’t remember the supreme court either,,,( they  the Supremems, are not going to vote on any thing, issue,  at this time till a ninth justice is appointed
..)...lets see,,,,
This program Community Protection program is the only name I have found for it,,,started back in the early nineties if not maybe before...I heard of it in the late nineties and it was not as fleshed out as it is now,,, the police were not part of them,,, it seemed to be a loose group of people who went around carrying out clandestine actions for rich people,, yeah know like ,,, apt. invasion, Dew, any task asked they carried out,, and they do too.. Now they are affiliated with security companies, the police and govt... mission creep.So that is what I believe,, Of course we have Operation safe HOMe, which started early nineties also,,, SWAT went into the big housing projects and cleaned them out of criminals of all sort, druggies , rapists murderers,,, etc. they went across the nation into every major city carrying out raids on peoples,,,,this I think was the beginning,,, I have to think about this and also HUD hated whistleblowers,,,, its funny about that name,,, if they leak its ok,,, if we the people leak its a whistleblower,,, activists,, dissidents were noted as vermin by HUD,, troublemakers,, I lived in a HUD building,, Stuart Cumins was landlord and Kennedy was his Vp... when I took out a petition to plant flowers in our building,,, that was a sign to the office I was a dissident ,, vermin and to be gotten rid of,, then with Torigian , it was a mess ,,,I don’t know what came first,,, I think the petition may have come first...and the old lady probably dead now who curled her finger around my clipboards said “bad things happen to those who do this.” HuD wanted control,,, fuck the people who lived there,, no democracy here,,,,oh well...

punishment

I was the one who told Clinton to send Elian Gonzales back to cuba,,, no one would believe me,,, and thats ok,,,i was friends with the people on the Lehrer news hour,,,, I started writing to them in 1993,,, and in 95 I went online which ruined everything,, the internet  is to quick to put deep thought into,, I mean really worry over an idea to try and figure out the unforeseen circumstances. but then we will have computers do it for us and our brains will rust,,, the machines will become conscious and take over the world .. ala Terminator,, as we trip right down the path,,, Right now WE are arming Vietnam,, ARMING VIETNAM, so they can stand off China’s aggression in the S. China sea.

It is amazing,,, how things within a few short years go topsy turvy,,,AMAZING...SOUNDS  good to me,,, we cannot afford to send people to China to fight directly and those that live their know about Japanese and Chines tyranny. Hell their all despotic crazy,,, look at Laos, Cambodia, N. Korea,, that will be on China’s side... holy shit,,,this is quite a war brewing,,, the Muslims think we are the enemy... I got news for them...Rule the world,, who wants to rule the world?  amazing.


One of the things that Judy, Margaret,,,Jim and the others didn’t understand,, was I was a mom,, first and foremost,,, since Danielle was born,, they always came first.. no matter what I did..(Danielle used to get puzzled by some of my actions,,, and then later when the plot had thickened and I got to what I wanted she saw the reason for my actions... it could of been anything) She would know what I am talking about...I remember her remarking on it once,,, she said,,, “Oh that’s why you did that.”!But that is why elaian was sent back to Cuba because of my suggestion.. They must of thought it good at the time,,, except for the Florida cubans,,, they were enraged at the time... but it did work out for the best,,, Cuba is now open,, and that give back to Cuba was a turning point. Things changed in attitude with Castro. from then on ...

Paul Donavan next door neighbor..

Paul Donavan is a fairly new neighbor,,, he is a nasty piece of work,,, I got an impression of his personality when I saw him letting his dog chit and piss on our property,, granted its next to his but it is not his,,, his son was going to some fed academy I got the impression it was FBI or CIA something like that,, he looks the part…that spiffy shiny,,, dork,,, IBM look…cop look,,, in civilian clothes… anyway… he was the one who went out twice and told the security company up the street,,, ON TARGET ,,to stop pulsing the house he was going through his house,,, Nelson also driving by Stacias house would get just around the corner and pulse through my house,,, it would go through the back yard and through Pauls, house,,, he became good buds with David Diachision,, David made sure he made friends with him,,, but Paul approached him first…I saw him go across the street,,, He was standing out side the driveway going over to david’s house when I asked him how did it feel to target someone,, he got real mad,,,and continued across the street…I was getting hit from the back road,, I walked down and him and stephanie were hiding in the bushes,,, it was really weird,,,I noticed them and said hi,,,,they hid me back,,,,but it was them,, now the wisteria is dying,,,,not doing well at all,,, and who profits but Paul he asked Bud two years ago to pay for half the fence,,, I told Paul forget it we don’t have the money,,, so he has to pay for it himself…oh well….we are just trying to fix the fence on the other side… Ill buy that next month….my japanese red maple is not doing well neither is buds pot plants,,, and I believe the reason they are not doing well is because I am being hit with vibratory pulses that is killing the plants….plants are very susceptible to pulsing,,,, I know the whole top half of the Rhodudemdrum plant died because of pulling coming through the fence, either it was Paul,, or Babe Johanson, on his other side,,, I don’t know where Pauls bedroom is ,,, so Im assuming it was not in the line of fire…from Johanson’s ,,,, 

12 may 16

I see things winding up,,,tonight Gina Diachision drove by,,I was out in the back yard, when she pulsed me so i went out front in my own yard never said a word ,, again the son yelled at me and was disrespectful. The girl waited till he got there ,, and escorted her in the house.  She was acting scared, a set up.. one sees her actions but does not see the pulsing which was a trigger.
A friend of Buds drove up,,Dave,,red SUV discovered we had a front gate because I went back in the yard not wishing to talk to him or Bud.James stopped over with the dog to pick up his pill and have a hamburger.  I’m tired,,very tired.I taped the Diachisins on seagate 3..i can’t remember the title.11 may 16

9 May 16 Danielle and James

Today is monday and today Danielle and James and I went to the Dmv,,, to get James’s license...permit,, he’s has gotten into some money wishes to buy a truck..the paper was incomplete so we went no where... next monday
but as we drove out of the street in comes David Diachision,,,cranking his neck to see, dan had her head down,,, and was looking at the center of the car but he saw me,,,,and I saw him,,,so I fear a sabotage being done to her car... as usual.. Ever since I asked Jeffrey Grayson  at Costco,,,,“How was his targeting business” things have been intense.  So we shall see, James wants to buy his truck,,, as soon as he can so he can start making money... which is a good thing...

Bud 6 -7 may16

Bud won't leave Kelly he wants the house, I suspect he's the one in my chat rooms who calls me an old hag and accuses me of being bald, a derogatory snide remark about Kelly. Or it could be ant and he portrays himself prepped by perps.
Bud joined them as he told me he would do anything to save his family, and I think he would. He joined the other side.
Mother's Day everyone was gone Devin came home, the high hiss and constant pulsing started. I was laying down got hit in the face , so I blasted him, with my sports horn, didn't like that, Cody threw up so I went upstairs and told Devin he asked if I fed him I said sausage, that must of been it , then I asked him why he hates me? He said he didn't . Then I said , yes you do and what did I do to make you hate me it must of been terrible. James and I went for a walk and we came back and I shows James my bureau, it was locked up, but there was a big dig on the side just as you walk in, James saw it. I took a picture 1930's vibtage and this puke desecrated it. I hate you too Devin. I told him I was going to take Cody for a walk, James and I did. and Devins voice had anger in it. And I'm getting really pulsed since James left.

A strange morning,,,5 May 16

yesterday I bought the Sugru,,, it has its faults,,not to perfection yet and cannot even state that for sure as I have not finished evaluating it yet....cords at least my cords bend,, so its drying on a bend,,I made a pot of coffee as usual,,,I filled the milk container almost full. more than usual.. I went to get my coffee and the pot felt very light,,,sometimes it has boiled away for some reason,,, and the milk seemed way down... How knows ,,not I,, just oberservations,,, as sherlock holmes stated ,,," Its all in the details"...ah yes my newest signature.....
I found a art deco bureau,,, and its 150 and transport home is 135,,,so 285,, yeah to me well worth it,,, a lovely piece,, he can deliver it tomorrow... its called waterfall its called,,,nice name too,,,,,” I never knew it had a name,, but such a beautiful piece...mothers day present,,,


75 +150=  
225
150 + 135= 285
save 60.00

for mothers day,,, so happy nice piece.

What a day,, one grandson is taken to the hospital for an overdose,, my daughter thinks she will lose her housing because of it

James came ,, over and some spiced rice,,,such a good dish,, excellent,, easy fairly quick ,, very different, each bite is different,,, anyway he stayed as long as the counselor for jillian stayed,, he left shortly after her,, its all mind controlled. Adams overdoes... James ,,,Jack, Me  and Bud.its all planned and carried out very well ,,,like a play,, and that is what it is,,, only for those in power its a real live play and they get to pick the people and the plot.....and who does what...I was told this a long time ago this is nothing but a play to those in power.....fu those in power,,, I hope some bacteria crawls up your ass and eats you from the inside out...you deserve it...
2 May 16

Kelly and Bud,,,2 May 16

yeah Buds a dink,, he was hitting me this morning from DEvins room and I guess he was hitting Kelly as well she walked out and called him a fucking asshole,,, this v2k is a two way street,,he can hear me,,, every move I make,, but I can also hear him,,,sorta,, It think,, I heard Kelly this morning,, but don’t know if you gotta press the send button.

Bud siad about my parenting

Bud and I had an argument we txt,, really and he said something I thought strange,,, he mentioned my  parenting,,,He never said anything about my parenting before,,so here is why,,,today his family is having a dinner party for mothers day over to his mothers sisters house.... I was not invited...
That is what all the parenting remark was about,,, Mother’s Day. Yeah the perps did a number on me in my later years...
Kelly for some reason has told people I was cruel to her,,, I never hit her in her life,, except a few weeks ago when she attacked me. I gave as well as I got...she won’t fuck with me again,, James thought I was weak to we had a little contest and he was surprised as well... they smell weakness.
when my ankle was broke by the perps,,, she would come in and demand with threatening gestures for my Van keys,,, I didn’t want her to use it,,, she drove it like a sports car...that old girl had a lot of miles in her, but Kelly thought she looked shabby,, and she wanted to go get drunk with April,, I figured that out later, April because of her life and her accident turned into a drunk,, kelly because of her fracture that this fat girl fell on during volleyball,,, discovered pain pills, April I think introduced her to booze,,,
Kelly was telling others of my bad parenting,,, one christmas Joe and Kris were up,, and I got the impression that Kris thought I was a bad parent as Kelly had maligned me,, it was to get sympathy,,, thats what she wanted... sympathy... oh poor Kelly,, she’s a little bit on the nutty side, as is Bud... so I said to Kelly what was the name of the restaurant we used to go to for Sunday brunch ,,, not every Sunday but couple of times a month we went out for brunch,,, then the beach all day... life was hard for them.. they went looking for trouble not bright enough to walk the other way,, I seemed to have been born with more common sense than many... especially my kids...so I asked Kelly what was the name of the restaurant,, and she yelled across the room to my delight,, ,The Old Ox,,, lovely little restaurant in the back,, curved brick walls,,, lovely plants and skylights,, nice booths a charming place,, and they loved the Texas french toast,, I had a spinach salad with coconut and bacon dressing was it good... very good.....we spent a couple of hours there enjoying each other and the meal... The Zoo or roller skating in balboa park was next,,, or the beach,,, usually Friday I did not date at all, I took them to the video arcade,,no one at that time had computers or video games in the home,,, just in these fancy arcades,, I used to play too, my favorite was tempest,,, kelly loved , I think the round things that ate everything,,, Iforgot,, Danielle I don’t know.. this was Friday nights for us...
I worked,,, then when kelly met buddy at  16-17 she disappeared,, from my life,, I was trying to get my degree to be able to enjoy life more,, with them of course, but she was into the boyfriend as they all do.. and I saw little of her,, and after I bought her her car , she was really gone,, I spent the time with James and Adam... who were born a few years later,, James was born in May and I graduated from school in June,,,I bought Dan the bunk beds and matching bureau for the boys cost a thousand and a thousand for Kelly’s car she sold it years later for a thousand. I think it was a Volkswagon,
Not new but in good shape,, she used it well up until she sold it, when she got her inheritance from her father, I bought that for her from the inheritance from my father.  So thats it,, fuck you kelly for being such a asshole and siding with Buddy thinking this pleases him,, it doesn’t,, it just makes you out that much more of a fucking asshole...to go against your blood.. never forgive you for that kelly,, I only can attribute your behavior as the elevator does not go to the top floor. In other words you and Bud deserve each other... retards. After everything you did to me and Bud,, I still love you,, despite your foolish actions... I know you hurt Jake,,, I know you went after him when you told me it was ok to leave him on the deck with you... you and Bud took off,, you know what you did, you were no where to be found,,, and Jake was crippled,,, I was very surprised when you told me it was ok to leave him on the deck,,,, completely out of character but in character for Bud.. I hope he never focus you over,, because I know he would... he’s an asshole...just like you.
love mom

1 May 16,,,,

This is in reply to Tyrone Dew ,, another TI.

I would like to but at this time I have ten dollars in my pocket. As you know TIS do not live large . I could send you twenty Tuesday , I know it isn't much but as you know every little bit helps ,

 oh yeah TEDs is by invitation only. I wanted to go before TED which is a organization that has speakers from all over the world on different subjects... I approached him to speak and he agreed and I just found out it is by invitation only.

I'm also hit with sonic bullets. My DEW has been mostly sonic and a spark gap device and of course micro pulses. I believe modified cell phones with an Android app is used , which one I don't know , and modified Nintendo- Xbox game cubes. I know the Nintendo with a black box addition is used in my case. The man across the street , a Chris Yaikus installs commercial audio and Video equipment he and his stepson are ground zero for DEW for me. I. Actually saw his son pulsing my house where I slept. The boy, no more than 15,, jumped his four foot back road fence,, walked down between the wii house I mentioned below and her garage,,, I will put a picture here later today, and was in a distinctive costume,, he stopped pulsing went back to his house over the fence and within a minute or two came out the front door. He had on the same costume that I had seen between the buildings... He also has a spark gap device and he set it out front of his steps on his house,,, I was getting hit,, they use through wall radar to hone in on your position, to make sure they hit the target..I got up to go out and see if I could claim the device, when I went out to the front of our house across from his house, the son was just going in the front door and the spark gap stopped.

Years ago I was getting slammed as I am now and I complained to a friend of mine, he sent the cops over to the house that I was getting hit from , , the cops questioned  him , his son was home from college and it was a game, I was getting hit with. The game was called CALL TO DUTY. After the cop visit it stopped . This happened before the local cops started to get involved as well. 

I have not checked yet but think this house  may be active again. 

I  know Wii was involved  from Cheries house, having seen the actual spark leave the handset fly across the street and hit my house. The boy was playing his Wii on his back enclosed big windows porch, the blinds were up and the  spark from the handset hit the TV at the end of the porch nearest my house ,,,took a "90 degree " turn from the TV and flew over to my house. I told the mother and it never reoccurred . What Was in my kitchen to attract this hot burning spark, I do not know. but I know I was also being hit with this , as often as he played the game.. So it was a horrific time for me.

Many speak of the hive mind and online gaming with many taking part around the world in one game could be likened to this hive perp mind theory. I will donate Tuesday. 

Barbara