lights out and our brain

Last night we had an electrical storm that kept disrupting our electrical system.  Continuous hits on the system. Finally the system went out. It was pitch black and no vibration, no flashes of light, no high hisses,  no pulses. nothing, I was thrilled and was tired so I went to bed, I was overjoyed when I went to bed no ,no , no vibration.

Later after I had been in bed for a while the vibration came  slight, and I was pulsed a few times, now that tells me that some of these devices run on batteries, I do not think the electricity came on.   For the electricity was out all over the neighborhood.  I also think that some of these devices are locators. They locate people as the back scatter camera does.  It was pitch black outside and  rained very heavy, I mean poured, so anything I did would be covered.  I thought of getting up dressing in black and leaving. I had a few dollars and the rain and dark might cover my exit, but I did not, to tell the truth I was so tired. I asked myself if I wanted to spend the rest of my life like this and the answer was NO, but I could not get up enough energy to get up and go. I slept well.  I woke up to my TV on. Which it was probably turned on, because the electricity went off,  the TV would stay off until you pushed the button. It would not automatically go on..So someone pushed the button and they can do this with pulses.  Other TI's have spoken of the phenomenon.

One day the opportunity may come again and this time I will be ready.

I am watching Nova on Savants,  the scientist are studying them for their amazing abilities, through disease or accident,, the prefrontal cortex is where all the stuff is created to do all the stuff we do as humans today, we did more stuff so we kept building a bigger brain and that is why we have folds in our brain, natures way of Origami...

(this is our modern brain, that runs our modern world, our primitive brain is located at the stem of the spine, which makes sense, since all we were evolution-wise at one time was a spine and a little brain thats main purpose was only for survival, it still works that way today, this is our subconscious. It ensures our survival and is our computer. Sex, breathing easting, flight or fight, all things that ensure our survival reside with in this area. ) Some and I hate to mention this call it the ****** brain. 

 ...Our emotional center is there in the prefrontal cortex as well. Depressed patients who write down their thoughts and express their stress will alleviate the stress or some of it. Maybe our journalists are stress free people? Food for thought. 

Journaling can be a silver bullet to alleviate stress, it is off loading the stress.  If you are test taking and  if you journal before you test,,your  grade will go up, especially if you write about your stress feelings.

 I think the chats on talkshoe works the same way for TI's... I think I was given a lobotomy, my personality is flat and dull.I very rarely feel sharp and I know for a long time I was medicated, through pulsing. Long distance another reason I believe we are medically monitored. I was allowed to come off the drugs and things started to be sharp and clear and I got really enraged over what had and is being done to me, so they drugged me again. I think they also drug me so that I will be more accepting of the punishment I take every day and the beatings I was subjected too. They know if I react I will be arrested and a set up for one of the acts of violence they use for their own scenarios.

Like being hit with a baseball bat only no one is there and the constant abuse of my family and the manipulation  of my family against me. To control me and punish me. 

Even this blog is part of it. 

 Journaling to alleviate stress, it's even a good record of what is being done and someday maybe I'll get justice. Real good old fashioned justice..

Batteries and Savants

Last night we had an electrical storm that kept disrupting our electrical system.  Continuous hits on the system. Finally the system went out. It was pitch black and no vibration, no flashes of light, no high hisses,  no pulses. nothing, I was thrilled and was tired so I went to bed, I was overjoyed when I went to bed no ,no , no vibration.

Later after I had been in bed for a while the vibration came  slight, and I was pulsed a few times, now that tells me that some of these devices run on batteries. The electricity had not come back on. For the electricity was out all over the neighborhood.  I also think that some of these devices are locators. They locate people as the back scatter camera does.  It was pitch black outside and  rained very heavy, I mean poured, so anything I did would be covered.  I thought of getting up dressing in black and leaving. I had a few dollars and the rain and dark might cover my exit, but I did not, to tell the truth I was so tired. I asked myself if I wanted to spend the rest of my life like this and the answer was NO, but I could not get up enough energy to get up and go. I slept well.  I woke up to my TV on. Which it was probably turned on, because the electricity went off,  the TV would go off until you pushed the button. It would not automatically go on..So someone pushed the button and they can do this with pulses.  Other TI have spoken of the phenomenon.

One day the opportunity may come again and this time I will be ready.

I am watching Nova on Savants,  the scientist are studying,, the prefrontal cortex is where all the stuff is created to do all the stuff we do as humans,, our emotional center is there as well. Depressed patients who write down their thoughts, express their stress and alleviate the stress.  Journaling can be a silver bullet to alleviate stress, it is off loading the stress.  If you are test taking and  if you journal before you test,,your  grade will go up, especially if you write about your stress feelings. I think the chats on talkshoe works the same way. I think I was given a lobotomy, my personality is flat and dull.I very rarely feel sharp and I know for a long time I was medicated, through pulsing. Long distance another reason I believe we are medically monitored. I was allowed to come off the drugs and things started to be sharp and clear and I got really enraged over what had and is being done to me, so they drugged me again. I think they also drug me so that I will be more accepting of the punishment I take every day and the beatings I was subjected too. Like being hit with a baseball bat only no one is there and the constant abuse of my family and the manipulation  of my family against me. To control me and punish me. Even this blog is part of it.  Journaling.

The one hundred and fifty doll

The hundred and fifty dollars.

I was waiting at the bus stop for my bus,,,it was a really really windy day. I was standing in front of the newly opened ice cream stand, eating an ice cream I did not want, but this was the third business to be there and I wanted this one  to succeed. 

So on this windy windy day I see this flutter out of the corner of my eye,,and I have no idea what it is, so I investigate. I think it is a dollar bill and I look closer and it is a fifty dollar bill. Well my eyes bug out of my head..wowwwwww

So I stand there after shoving it in my pocket and I'm eating my ice cream kinda happy at my mothers day find, a gift from the wind god and I see another flutter and look and think it's a 20 dollar bill , I go over pick it up and it's a 100 dollar bill and I'm like wow,,, the wind and mother's day gods are really thinking of me.

 I'm eating my ice cream and waiting for my bus and I'm all alone except for the ice cream shop and their kinda locked up.  

I'm waiting and waiting and eating this ice cream I did not want but bought hoping it helps this shop succeed when this guy came walking down the street and he's looking and looking and looking. 

He's all over the place looking. I never say a word to him and he never says a word to me. He never asks me anything. I would of given it to him if he had asked me, but he was silent and so was I. 

 Then after a little while another guy joins him and they go looking and looking and walk down the street.  Now what they don't know is before they got there , there were other people there who could of taken this money. 

Finally my bus comes and I get on, now I have planned wisely for the birthday party for my grandson, I had my own shopping money, so this money meant nothing to me.

I do my shopping and used the 50, for some reason. 

I go home,,later the next night  I'm in my apt. doing something and I am being questioned about this money, and I never denied it, but I never admitted it either, I believe in , FINDERS KEEPERS,,LOSERS WEEPERS  and I feel many people are very careless with money and when I am mind controlled my money can go real easy. I have seen it happen many times. They set me up and I believe this was the same.

Just some bullshit scenario to beat the shit out of me. See The Petition Post. Evidently the kids had reported the money as gone to the police. They lost it, and if anyone turns it in, it belongs to them.

Yesterday my daughter took me shopping for the rest of my grandson's birthday.  On the way home we drove by the Peabody Police Dept. and I was pulsed real hard and real precise. It hit me squarely in the lungs, just a small ball of acoustics or EMP, whatever it was, it was  like being punched in the lungs with a golf ball. Only no one knew it but me..**
(This money thing is a set up for something going on, planned for the future,, they always do that.  Something will come up and you can't do something because of some thing they did to you that would not allow it. Some where down the line the want to call me or record it that I'm a thief. Well I guess if this is it well then I am,  but I did not steal this money. Nope. Sorry. no thief,,opportunistic maybe but not a thief. And before all this harassment and hate walked into my life, I would handed it to him. but I hate you all.

Forcing one into a mental institution will put a major damper on your life and what you want to do with it. They do that,, label you. Fuck you assholes.

A reminder that they knew and believed I had the money. Which I never denied.) 

**I could not talk, breath or gasp for about 5 minutes if not longer.  This is police work, and this is what high tech devices can do to you and ever since this started my harassment has gotten worse. It was bad before, but now it is off the charts. They are hitting my legs,,I walk like and old old person , so when I die it can be said I was old.. but I was always in good shape, I even try to now to exercise often, not every day like I want to, because I get to exhausted from lack of sleep and harassment.  Oh, yeah David Diachision's son is home,,from college? and the harassment, the pulsing that burns, began with him..So it intensifies again,,one other thing, they stole from me, much, they destroyed much, they harmed my health and went after my family. If I can piss them off by doing harm to them, I'm glad. They deserve it. I will try to submit my court case this week.. We shall see more on this later. 

I mean beams of energy that is so hot it will peel your skin off, and vibrate you into a coma. I am so sick from this, but you know, I don't give a shit, I hate these fuckers more than anything and these young men should of kept this money deep in their pocket, evidently they did not.   I believe in chump change too, a few bucks in one pocket and the rest of your money in the other. So you do not lose a great deal if it slips out of your pocket or you are robbed. The nuns who worked in the ghetto knew about chump change.

So this is the new age police work, they are going to force me using high tech devices to return what I found. So be it. I think the two guys should learn an expensive lesson. I will give the money back because I am being forced to, not because they deserve it , or because I want to, but because I am being hurt so severely from these weapons. There was a time when I would of immediately returned the money, but not now,,, if I can hurt or harm anyone who is part of this system, who uses this system against me. I wish them all the harm in the world. I wish them poverty such as I suffered. Homelessness. You name it I have no love for my fellow man, not anymore, I wish you death,destruction and hate, because that is all I have gotten from you and WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND and this is what you have taught me, I knew nothing like this in my life nor treated anyone like this in my whole life, this was stranger to me. This whole thing is a set up. To beat me down, to bring me closer to death, this is what is in your future. I am a modell. Read past post on modell.

 My whole persona has changed because of this harassment, HATE  does walk within my personality like a festering sore and I will give it to whomever I can in any way I can. When my grandson's arm was broken and that was a set up as well, Well that was the cherry on the cake. I wish you all hell. I wish there was a hell for I would wish you all in it and be glad to put you there, as it has been said. "To forgive is up to god, my job is to arrange the meeting",,, Denzel Washington In "Man on Fire",, great movie. I paraphrase,,my apologies.

Last night, I was out in the yard and Matt Gauthier a past perp blasted me, through the fence and took off at high speed in his black pick up truck, before I could get out the gate to see who it was. The kids who were talking to him , told me  who it was, they have grown up with him, I went over to his house and took a picture of his black truck and his house and I hope his neighbors tell him what I did, my bedroom is a straight shot from his back window. This is all part of the same thing , Matt has been hitting me for a long time, he just has to drive by, not even out of his way. I recognized the truck.  

As I came around the dirt road,,Jeffrey Schetromph, was taking some stuff into his house and I felt a beam of energy from what he was carrying which was indistinguishable . I wonder what he had in his hand, he knew I was there , he did not turn, nor acknowledge me, nor I him, but he did see me as I came around the corner of his fence.
 I have not been directly hit from him, like I saw his father do. He's hit me in the face as he drove-by me up the street. He is a brave old fucker, but if I am outside he goes in the house. He runs from me. He had his knees replaced he's gonna live till he's 100, sponging off the system, he can well afford to have someone come in to make his meals instead he gets meals on wheels..
I don't think he should,, he can afford other means, but he sponges off the poor,,for was this not meant for poor elederly?

He hurried in the house and I have long thought he has been responsible for some of this, he works for the feds so he is aware of this shit. They all are. So that is what happened to me. Ever since then I have been beaten real hard and feel real sick, but this is just a continuation of what my life has been like, they set up scenarios I react they way I am programmed and then they slam me, bring me closer and weaker to death.
Read petition

blowback

Blowback, , karma what ever you want to call it,,, no wonder the Muslims hate us look how we left Iraq, devastated. You  must remember Saddam was our guy..Eric Prince, was our guy,  of Blackwater fame  by Jeremy Scahill, a good book by the way.

And to think about S. America, now we are being invaded by S. Americans, they have no economy, to support them, so many come here. the rich are really rich there and the poor are really poor there.

So shall we look at ourselves?  are we to blame for what has happened, this southern invasion, people looking for a good life. Tired of poverty , willing and able to risk their lives for a decent life.

Are we at fault because of our poor treatment of S. America, that we ourselves are responsible  for this invasion.?  I know we are responsible for Iraq and that will surely come back to haunt us.  It already has and has changed our society and our lives, whether we like or or not. The world, our children will grow up in will be far different than the freedoms and ease that we had as children, I guess you could say it was a good run.. A few good years to enjoy what this country has offered us. to bad we couldn't keep it , as it has been said, "You have a democracy , now see if you can keep it," I think that was Franklin.

Well,, one wonders?

Of Course 1984

When I first read 1984, I did not fully understand the story,, I only paid attention to his incarceration and subsequent torture and of course his love story and the censorship, but one fact eluded me at first. An obvious fact but still I missed it till a later reading, that 1984 is all about gov't, it's treatment of it's people when gov't becomes totalitarian.

He has cameras in his home for social engineering, the same today with cameras everywhere.  It has been said,,, the TV is a two way device and it was. The old big fat TV  we had was two way, cable makes that so possible , the new thin digital TV's  are probably better. 

Now what is my proof of this, well 20 years ago when my grandson was conceived, my daughter at app. 7 months started to deliver him. It seems that this genetic trait can be passed down through generations. My niece, my other niece and I believe my sister had this problem of a cervix weakened by initial childbirth would collapse and premature birth is the product for the second child. It has a name but can't remember. Cervix Prolapse,,I think is what it is called.  she was hooked up to our VCR through a belt she wore, the belt monitored her contractions and injected meds into her thigh where she injected a needle and a reservoir for the meds.  A pulse was sent through the cable from the Boston Children's Hospital to our TV, from Boston to Peabody, to our VCR, to the belt, and to the meds, which pumped meds,  upon impulse from the hospital into her body to counteract her contractions.

The medical establishment discovered they could medically monitor patients in their homes. This program I am on, to medically monitor people who they believe are dissidents, activists and mentally ill are monitored in their homes and the medical field feels it is very financially feasible.

This is why I think Adam cried for  a long time after he was born, I think it was withdrawal from these meds for him. I should ask what the meds were.

This was back in 1993. I think the technology has increased since then so we have this technology in our homes and don't know it yet for sure.  I think I do, for we have gone digital since then and our medical files can be accessed without  warrant, through the back door access to the computers.  A TV would be nothing to manipulate,  easy peasy.

Smith in 1984 was a gov't worker, controlled and punished when he went off the beaten path, he was a censorship employee, just like we have today.  All media.

The woman hanging up clothes that Smith describes and is singing is a prole,,a prolatariat,An average person like you and I. Common Cattle.  What is a cattle prod to a cow, you and me, that's how they think of us.


proletariat | ˌprōləˈterēət | (also archaic proletariate) noun [treated as singular or plural] workers or working-class people, regarded collectively (often used with reference to Marxism): the growth of the industrial proletariat.

Smith was not beaten, but his mind was changed from being an activist, a revolutionary, for that was the profile, he was mind controlled to accept the party line, that is how he was destroyed.  They did not have to kill him,,just like today. Just tweak his thinking a little bit, and make him benign.

Petitions are signs of an activist and dissident, a profile for a revolutionary.

I was also interested in the linguistics of the story,,,is that tweeting/chatting

Chomsky is a linguistics professor, I wonder what he thinks of that, I heard him mention something about this in one of his lectures In Boston years ago.

Doublespeak.I wondered about that.

My life at this time is very different than I thought it would turn out to be

I didn't think I would be in a war in my old age, but I am, we all are, many do not know it yet, but they'll find out the hard way when it hits them alongside the head like it did to me.  

I am in the grip of something psychopathic,  these devices enable so much power to be given to any one individual, that the power is heady and turns anyone into a psychopathic person.  

From what I have seen this seems to be an innate trait in all of us.  Especially men, who think manhood is all about control. That's what they think, control is manhood. I see manhood as a totally different thing. This manhood attitude is what gets us in trouble all over the world, and commits most crimes and abominations like child sexual abuse, thievery, etc . You get my drift.. 

I was speaking to my Muslim friend and he said the Muslim way of looking at women is that " the world is beneath our feet, Motherhood. I asked him what if the woman did not want to have children? No decent reply.  He also mentioned drinking and alcoholism, evidently the Muslims can't hold their liquor and this is why it is forbidden in the Quran, Mohammed saw this within his people even in his time.  They must be like the US Indians,,no method of moderation built up. So if we want to take over the Muslim world and subjugate them,,give them booze it seems that is their genetic weakness.

I also signed up for a DEW symposium , I will write about it after I get there. I do not want dates, where or time put here for fear of sabotage.

Spoke with another TI yesterday and she states her cops are not involved in her targeting, mine are,, one police car followed the taxi (The Ride) I was in, from Saccos auto repair on Lynn ST. up the street to the mall , zapping me all the way , we had to drop another passenger off along the way, I took a taxi. Anytime a relative or acquaintance gives me a ride their vehicle is sabotaged.

To many times this has been done to disbelieve.


 I have had to rely on buses and The Ride when no bus is available. Sometimes it is very difficult.  As I got on The Ride I noticed Cherie Rathburn across the street the neighborhood gossip and she is the one who threw the old cement in the pond,,our drinking water.  I wrote to the EPA about this, I know old cement is full of toxins and Peabody's water is bad enough from past abuses and lack of care. She is also the one who denuded the pond edge in back of her house,, so she could enjoy the "view" this is our watershed and not her private pond.  So she hates me and feels I maligned her as being Jewish, and that is not true,,I admire and appreciate Jewish people, Einstein is long been a hero of mine, and his wife.
I was cheated or so I thought out of some money, a person I met through her, he bing Jewish. I only asked him if it was true what bin laden's mentor thought of Jews.

That because of their enslavement under the Egyptians, "when Jews are poor the are slavish, and when rich arrogant and cruel. " I will add the exact quote here at another time. I do not believe this, but asked out of a scholarly question. She took it as an insult, she's not to bright anyway.

I should of taken a pic but did not think of it, probably programmed not too. 

just a few names of high tech, high level whistleblowers,,just like me

A courageous group of FBI, CIA and other Government whistleblowers have stated these program never ended after the Church Committee hearings in 1975.  Approximately 500,000 National Security Letters have been issued with no probable cause and no due process post 9/11 against innocent Americans which is the way a NSL is issued.  

 These Whistleblowers include Ted Gunderson - FBI Officer, Dr. Robert Duncan CIA Inventor and Scientist of Synthetic Telepathy which is being used to torture Innocent Targeted Individuals, Mike German - FBI, Thomas Drake - NSA, William Binney - NSA, Mark Phillips - CIA- Mk Ultra, Bob Levin - FBI.  The NSL kicks off the hell.  It's filed in Washington, D.C. and part of the Delusional War On Terror.

And me Barbara Guillette who blew the whistle on Mayor Peter Torigian and Eastman Gelatin for burying a toxic dump under the golf course to be at that time built.

 I know it is local but you know they did to me what they did to every other whistleblower,,,blow your life apart. So I guess I'm in good company.