divorce decree, Torigian and Operation safe Home

When I got divorced in 1977, it was at the request of my husband. I didn't want the divorce  knowing I would never marry again.. So the paper was moot for me, but my husband rode to work with a friend who was divorced and his wife took everything and I mean everything, she certainly left behind an angry man. So when I left  I only took half of what I owned and did leave some things that I owned behind that the baby sitter took with her when she cleaned out the place.

another story.

I took half the dishes,,,only my children's beds, I left everything else.. took some pots and pans, things my mother had given me. Anyway this  friend of my husbands scared him, he said I would come back and take my husband's beloved house. 

I hated the house from the first day I moved in,,and advice to the men,,,you better make sure the person who lives in that house the most likes it. Otherwise nothing will work, I asked him to sell it a few times, and he said no,,,he was going to die in that house and when he said this, I felt as if someone had closed a coffin over my face.. I was not going to die in that house, I hated it..I told him two years before I left I was unhappy and I gave him two years to make me happy, and he ignored my request as usual. He ignored everything I said,, this time I wanted what I wanted and that was it, so I left.

At the end of two years nothing had changed except another baby. I left anyway. Taking them with me. I would never of given up my kids to anyone for any reason. but I did. I was unschooled, never worked, got fired three times and could not support them , so he asked me for them and when my youngest had a  seizure and could of died, and it scared me so bad I felt he could support them much better and care fort them much better than I. I said ok,,,only while I was in boot camp.

He told me he could take better care , he made much more money than I did, so I trusted him. I had also joined the Navy and in order to enlist and go to boot camp one had to give over legal authority to the other spouse. This had already been done in court for our divorce, I didn't realize why till much later, ,I  changed  custody  later,in Ca. when I regained the kids.

Now to get back to the divorce,,, in order to get divorced at that time,,we only had fault divorce,,someone had to be the bad guy and since he wanted the divorce out of his foolish fear I would come back later and take the house he loved more than anything.  He requested the divorce. So I was the bad guy and the charges at the time were cruel and abusive treatment. I had never done a bad thing to him in my life, nor my children.. I did not know the meaning of the word cruel,,or abusive. But that is what the law requested for a divorce.

When we went to court  I arrived first, and stood up to enter the court room. He asked that I stay out in the corridor, he said he would have to say some pretty bad things about me and he knew I would object, so like a trusting fool I stayed  outside and since he wanted the divorce. I acquiesced. Not realizing this would come back to haunt me and harm me years later.

I never knew to this day what was said about me..I did not know for many years later what the meaning of cruel and abusive  meant and how others looking into my past would be able to use this against me. 

It did not matter to me at the time, because as I said I would never marry again, he wanted his divorce so I gave it to him, never dreaming that Torigian would use this as fodder to put my name on the OSH Operation Safe Home by HUD program as a violent offender many years later.

Years later after I went home on leave and saw Donald,,, He told me everything I had requested in our marriage he did for the fucking babysitter, at first I was so angry over this, I felt he was shoving it up my butt. But he wasn't ,,in his own way he was telling me he had listened to me..He had thought about things,, I think for the first time in his life,,he wanted to know why I left and thought about it. 

Imagine that. 

He still kept the house though, but then he had his motorcycle accident and became this poor, defeated, mentally ill person from brain damage.  I did not realize how much Donald had depended on me for strength.I had no idea, he just hung on to anyone he could for support after I left. I did not know he was so weak, and that I was a much stronger person than he was. He always seemed to control the issues, it came as a great surprise to me, how weak he really was.  He drank and that got much much worse.He promised he would quit drinking altogether and I did believe him.  That was an issue with us. I asked him to learn to dance so when we went out with other couples,, we could dance and not sit at the table and he got so drunk.. I hated it. I know it may not sound like much to some, but to go out every time knowing you would have to deal with a drunk was not fun. Bored. argumentative.. Hated it. Never knowing what he would do.. 

When I joined the Navy,,he had legal custody and when I left I gave him physical custody. Then a few years later when I gained some rank and money, I asked for them back and he refused. He had a motorcycle accident which his mother told me he spent my child support money on purchasing the motorcycle. . I sent money home for the kids every month,,not a court decree, this was before women paid child support but because I wanted to. I wanted my children to know I never forgot them and I sent home boxes of clothes for school and every change of the season.. His mother told me he purchased his motorcycle with the support money and the babysitter's two girls ended up with the clothes. We bought a motorcycle  before our children were born and we gave that up when I got pregnant.

Later Donald told me he never realized how much work I did. How much work two children entailed but by then the compliment was much to late. He should of told me before , but Donald always took me for granted. Never went out of his way for me, ever. It was always what he wanted. he never considered, one thing I wanted..so be it,,,..he suffered for that ignorance as well. 

He loved me till the day he died, I never saw the love in his eyes he had for me, from anyone else,,,ever. His love shone out like a beacon, but it was all to late. 

Anyway that is Operation Safe Home, and how they go into your past looking for anything they can to dig up dirt on you , for their use.. They do it today with this expanded OSH, I see this program going out into the public , data mining,,, many people are going to be hurt by this,,,like  my divorce decree did to me and  that haunted me many years later.

I hope this makes sense and if it does not, I will peruse it later for clarity ..

The Neighbors

I wanted to talk about my next door neighbors, they are from Lynn, Paul  moved in just a few years ago, as did the Anderson's on the other side,,Frank has been a perp for quite a while now as well as his 17 year old son Frank jr. That's another story though. 

Paul  only moved in a few years ago as I said,,,, is this a coincidence?  A topic for Ti's is coincidences,,,, our lives seem full of to many coincidences... as Ti's,... I think this is done at first to make you aware of the targeting, to sensitize you to what is,, always ,,,going on around you.. You are tuned in ,,,so to speak.   I know I was,,, it enveloped my complete life, everything I did was controlled by them, I was told "  You have to know you  are targeted, if you are unaware you do not know and go about your life as normal..only when you are made aware do you really realize the capabilities of your life and what to fuck is going on... now the question is,,,,what is the real world,,, the world That I  existed in before, or this world that is full of control, coincidences, that are not coincidences.. 

Torture. Punishement. Constant survielannce.. evesdropping,  the precursor to drones and data mining.. I love this shit now everyone is under control... As I told Alda long ago this shit we are subjected to is going to move out into the general public and it has,,,I watched it do it on my street as more and more people came under it's control. for the perps are controlled as well. 

They were not perps,, but have been converted.. I think out of fear, or negative narative.. I know Paul's  house was pulsed several times by accident,,he was not the target but I was, but the perps did not care..

 they were trying to get to me . How do I know this because the pulse had to go through his house to get to me because of the angle... Paul the man,, went outside when his house was hit, and I heard him walking and yelling up the street from where the pulses were coming from... The pulses stopped.. His yelling stopped.

I sit halfway in my house from the street... with my back to Pauls house and the other day I had to put a piece of rope on this fence post. the picket fell out,,real easy, as if it had only been leaning against the hole.,, this is exactly from where  I have been getting pulsed a lot from.   So David can walk over unseen from his house, to Paul's driveway,, walk up and pulse me from the fallen picket.

This picket explained a lot because this is exactly where a lot of my assault has come from as I sit at this computer,,you see David,, has the through the wall camera,,, he knows where I am and what I am doing..so for him to walk across the street and set up something or pulse me every once in a while through this loose picket would be very very easy and as I said this does explain a lot.. The angle and placement of pulses is perfect,,,I even took pics of this area for while,,,I thought it was him coming in from Babe Johanson's back yard again, Two houses over from me, but David used to walk across the street, pull up a chaise lounge beside her fence and pulse it over the house,straight down into my bedroom, he knew if he was hitting me,,Im sure he had his thru wall camera with him, I have not seen it , but believe they are now small and protable,  but now David only does it from Paul's driveway..

That explains a lot for me.. This stuff, perps and targeting has spread and will continue to spread as  I predicted, the perps run out of targets and always need fresh meat so they keep it going at any cost, we are after all only pay checks to them and things, we are only things to them.

It is the name of the game to be a predator, so they think.

This is exactly from where a lot of assault has come from... For quite a while now.  The fallen picket has been reattached. 

David  is  second in command perp,,Nelson is no. 1. perp who lives up the street,,

After Paul was pulsed and he saw what David was doing to me, Paul went over and started to talk to David and they became friends. David feels very comfortable visiting  Paul's house  now and has gone over many many times and to view paul's new patio

 Paul's son is a fed agent in training in the academy of some sort..one of the alphabet soup gang.I think he said CIA,,, looks like a Mormon,,, you know. David's father is retired LT. Peabody Police.

Paul  has this little dog and as I stated many times,, dogs will alert to pulsing, beams or frequency assault. One Ti, said her cat headed for her celler when the assaults came. The animals  know it is wrong and it hurts them as well. Many animals are deafened. They cannot hear the pulses hit the house, aimed at me.. The pulses do not hit them but they hear them.  So they bark, Paul's dog barked when ever I was being hit.

When Nelson drove by the house and pulsed opposite Paul's house and the pulse was so strong it went through my house into Paul's house and up the street. Paul's dog went crazy barking, so you can imagine how strong this pulse was , and this was shot from his van,,I was in the back yard and saw Nelson, drove by.. Hearing the pulse coming from his direction exactly.  This went through three houses, thats how strong it was. 

rick and dave and tony

David Diachisin who works for the city,,, and his controller is Rick Nelson,,,Torigian now dead' son in law,,he married one of the fice daughters who all went to private schools on the taxpayer dime I might add.  Rick is a deputy fire chief, was his reward for marrying the boss's daughter. David's father was a Lt. and both extremely loyal to the boss, carrying out anything of his wishes.

Now I wonder what those would be.?? huh?  Anyone,,,? Anyone?

Sitting on the couch getting really hit on the side of the leg nearest to David's house and as I looked up saw the sparkle come across my lawn and felt it burn..He has his camera on me at all times the through the wall camera and as soon as he saw me look up stopped. Now back to Rick the dick.

Rick thinks his father in law created the elderly bus in Peabody, but the idea came from Gov. Dukakais he started THE RIDE.. Oh yeah the Ride bus driver last time picked me up at Market Basket,name of Tony,, big guy,,very Italian. Now my concern with this is,,,, Tony works for The Ride,,Tony is and knows all about Peabody. and now all about me.. , Rick does not want me to have access to any transport... Rick would like to have The Ride kick me off as well. We shall see.

We discussed  Torigian and got into it,,he told me never to start a fight I cannot finish,,,well for one thing I didn't know I was in a fight. I though I had a right to speak out ,,,that I thought 2 golf courses in our town for a rich man's game with a stick and a ball tied up just to much land..I was thinking of starting a fund to buy the land all of it and keep it for    ALL  the citizens of Peabody to use, what about a municipal swimming pool with hefty fees like the Y, that could be converted to skating in winter, sleigh rides.. hayrides,, lots of things for families to do..

 This is my thinking. Or a private wood preserve,promote animals to live there,,I mean a wild animal park with hefty fees.. Why not..It could of been so many things beside a golf course..For Everyone.  Ok,, or just woods...woods within a town is so unusual.. Usually they are all built up. the only reason this was fallow is because ,,because,, i have no idea.

 Oh well, I felt it my duty to speak out and make a good effort as to what I wanted to do..I knew it was a done deal. I didn't realize I was risking my life and limb, or that I was disloyal to Napolean.. his nickname.

Leslie bowed out at the city hall meeting..I never do this again,,I;m quitting.. he terrified her on walking in the room.. Crying, she's a nervous nelly anyway.  

Maybe she got lucky for Torigian never went after her,,just me. Don't know why,,i think he felt threatened by me..

So now I called the Peabody Elderly center and put my name on the list for the market tomorrow,,I wonder if they will break in and break stuff as they have done in the past. Or beat the shit out of me tonight like they did this morning..I will still try to get some pics of what they are doing..

I will never give up to these fucking death squad Nazis.

Modells and costco

There have been several explosions,, last night in Florida a propane tank company ,,Blue Rhino went up in flames.. 53,000 tanks.

There was another explosion in Texas a month ago, wiped out a business. Can't remember what,, but it was huge.

One wonders and now Costco is selling survivalist food,, I have shopped there since San Diego. 1982? ish. They are now selling survivalist food. I was thinking of buying some just in case. It lasts for years also a compressor and generator.  Nothing wrong with a little preparation. I was so startled to see Costco selling survival food,, is this a business move or do they know something I do not.. I believe Costco is run by Christian Fundamentalists.. It has been successful and it has changed with the years.. It used to be a good bargain, but now,,well things are much higher and sometimes much higher than other stores..

 I found out how the store works,,they charge a large fee for membership and then use it to buy goods at cost?  Or surplus, many of their prices are higher and some are lower and sometime the quality is very questionable sometimes the quality is very good, and they do have a good refund system.

 I bought my Apple performa computer from them back in 95 ish and the damn thing kept crashing,,I , a new computer person thought it was my fault. This is the computer that EG hacked later and later Apple requested I send my hard drive in to be fixed... Only then did I realize it was not my fault,boy was I pissed. It is funny about blogging, I was blogging back then but had no idea what it was called,,as seems usual in my life, the term had not been invented yet. Like harassment, or no fault divorce. Yeah  and like other issues.

These are only a few of the issues that I ran into in my life that has occurred that make me believe I am, like others a Modell. a person whose life is on the first 100 of the bell curve swing on the x-y chart. I think people readily exist like this, because someone has to start trends,,political, social, food, clothing all are trends that move through our society. 

I first noticed this when I was much younger the first time within my memory I noticed was bell bottom jeans.. I wore them when I was ten years old, much before the hippy regime. They were light blue and I had two pair,, treasured. 

I could  not find bell bottoms anywhere,except at this Army and Navy store,  everyone was wearing flats and capris pants..short and skinny. I proudly wore my bell bottoms,,I wonder if this was to foretell my joining the Navy so many years later which by the way was an accident of age. The Navy and Army have the oldest enlistment age,,I barely got under the wire with the Navy by 2 months otherwise it would have been the Army.

 I first read of modells in a book about revolutions, I was doing some reading for Clinton, yes that Clinton,, about the structure of revolutions and it was in one of them. 

 Luck or fate you figure.
I just read that there is a promotion freeze on within the military..Are we broke yet?

Threat Assessment

http://abcnews.go.com/blogs/politics/2013/07/glenn-greenwald-low-level-nsa-analysts-have-powerful-and-invasive-search-tool/

Getting Threat Analysis and Assessment Right after Sept.11th: Eleven Years Later…

Patrick Rogan 27 Comments NSWC, SOF History

It is human nature to be a hypocrite, but not every human succumbs to this irreverent tendency. However, in the National Security world hypocrisy is a fact. Never more so than in its effort to define or more specifically characterize threats to our national interest.

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National Security experts will often find a threat where there is none and deny a threat exists where there is one. This tendency can and does have a drastic effect on the decisions made by policy makers and doctrine writers, national vulnerability assessment and risk management efforts, and those who implement, manage, operate and test security measures related to the effective protection of national assets.

In what should be a linear approach to threat determination (i.e. intelligence collection, then information analysis, then threat definition) the National Security establishment is subject to considerable outside influences, such as political and non-political agendas, budgetary excesses and constraints, or organizational rice bowls (not an official term). Understanding and properly characterizing threats are how we effectively defend ourselves and protect our interests. When a threat is not clearly defined and properly understood, we afford our adversaries an opportunity to not only attack us, but to complete their intended objectives.

Admittedly there is no easy solution to this multifaceted problem because it is part of our National Security culture. Consequently, 11 years after the attacks of 9/11 we are still struggling to properly identify and communicate threats. This has never been better illustrated than in the aftermath of theattacks on the consulate in Libya on September 11, 2012, as we continue to discover an appalling trail of indicators that an attack was eminent.

In the weeks and months following the 9/11 (2001) attacks, the National Security establishment took steps to correct what had been perceived as a mistake in threat assessment and analysis. Most agree now that the National Security establishment did not give Osama Bin-Laden and his network of terrorists enough credit.

The 9/11 Commission pointed out many deficiencies that existed in the federal government, and some specific to the operations within the US Intelligence Community (IC). These same deficiencies are believed to have contributed to Al Qaeda’s mission not being successfully detected prior to execution.

But two of the most poignant improvements suggested by the Commission were first, to create methods to better share intelligence-related information among the IC and within the broader federal government. The second improvement was directed at Threat Analysis and Assessment, or what the Commission sited as a lack of imagination among National Security leaders of the time.

The first suggestion, to improve intelligence related information flow among federal agencies, was followed up by a law being enacted (the Intelligence Reform and Terrorism Prevention Act of 2004) as well as dozens of other executive orders, congressional mandates and national directives. Many federal agencies and their contractor counter parts adopted a wide variety Information Sharing policies and process, some more successful than others (the success and failures of Information Sharing is a topic for an entirely different discussion).

On the other hand, the policies and processes needed to unify our efforts to define threats effectively have lagged significantly. Besides the inhibitors mentioned earlier (politics, budgets, and rice bowls), threat definition and characterization continues to be an inherently subjective undertaking.

Some agencies have taken to a mathematical approach to determine what a threat may consist of. However good intentioned the use of a quantitative method may be, there are significant shortcomings with this approach. For example, a numerical system of threat definition cannot account for the asymmetric adversary or even the “black swan” theory. Although the numerical system is less subjective in a few areas, it leaves many threat concerns either unanswered or wide open to uneducated guessing.

By contrast to the quantitative method, many agencies use what I like to call the “three blind mice” concept, which consists of intra-agency Subject Matter Experts (SMEs) developing threat hypothesis based on a limited input of information (usually gathered from within their own agency).

Granted, these two examples may be limited in use (or not) and extreme in their perspective, but it is a reality as to how the organizations within our National Security framework operate. The need for a set of objective, imaginative, unified, and full spectrum threat analysis and assessment policies and processes is long overdue, eleven years overdue at least.

Coming Soon…Part II: Eleven Years Later: Starting Threat Analysis from the Middle Out

Read more: http://sofrep.com/12491/threat-analysis-assessment-post-9-11/#ixzz2aRmfWutk

The genisis of HELL

I was talking to another TI, who mentioned Hell and wishing all perps were to go there, I too wish that if we had a hell, but being an atheist if one does not believe in heaven then that negates hell as well, for without god one cannot have the devil..

I believe much of what we consider sins,,, are our most basic instincts that OPPOSE a structured society. In other words to murder you neighbor , or steal from your neighbor is not something that would promote peace or a structured peaceful society. Those actions promote chaos and the opposite of a structured peaceful society.

I was reading The New Testament at one time A revision of the Challoner-Rheims version.. it states on page 14,

"Raca' shall be liable to sanhendrin and whoever says thou Fool!'  shall be liable to the fire of Gehenna."

The footnote explains,,, Raca' means empty headed. Fool' seems to denote a rebel against god.  Gehenna; originally the "Valley of Hinnom, where the bodies of criminals were burnt after execution of sentence.

In the New Testement the name is usually applied to hell.

just a sketch and some pics

I do not know why the   background is orange,,,a sugar bowl.

These two pictures are of a relative,, fishing,,, that I took,  kind of artie art,, she can cast further than any male I know,,,and another Ti, explained to me how to make them interesting with movement. I do enjoy them I hope you do too.