About Donald,,

Married 12 years,,divorced,,, I joined the Navy , he kept the kids because the court gave him the kids legally but they lived with me, physically he would never of taken my kids, he would of died. No problem, but I worked at threee jobs and got fired, no training, scared stiff. Not used to being around a whole bunch of people.
so I dated a recruiter and  joined the Navy ,,more or less for an income and training,,,, and thats what I got. I also believed them when they said "see the world" I saw the U.Sl and that is pretty big,,,so I saw the part of the world most important to me..From sea to shining sea.

Just before boot camp, I gave the kids  so they could go and  live with their dad...they were happy about it. They loved their dad and I never spoke harshly of him to them,,,only after they were grown did tell them the truth,,Kelly dented my metal bowl one of the few things remaining from my marriage when I tried to tell her my side of the story,,she didn't want to hear it,,,her father was a saint..yeah know sometimes you gotta grow up and see that our parents were people too..

One of the first things I did was to send him  a check,,taken out of my check every month and mailed off,,,,child support,,, I felt they were my kids,,, I wanted them to know I never ever forgot them and the care, I could not be there to do it,,but I could help out,,, so I sent a check every month,,,didn't have to , court did not impose this on women who divorced,,usually she had the kids,,,,another trend I started...?
He (his mother told me) took that money and bought his motorcycle with it.The one he hit a tree with and cracked his skull and became retarded. A very talented, smart, sorta in some ways man. I saw him do some amazing stuff..We had motorcycles,,,honda,,,stuff like that,,,never biker stuff, but when I got pregnant with Danielle , we sold it,,,to dangerous for my taste and I was right. As fucking usual.

.Anyway his sister and mother took care of him his sister became his guardian,,, I was years divorced,,,no way was I going to saddle myself with his mistake,,,it was funny though he told me once that he realized what he had done wrong,,,he must of thought about it, because everything I asked him to do he did for Kathy. The thief babysitter. I was pissed of course, but found out later it was his way of telling me he had thought about everything...He realized what he had done and what he had lost, for Donald loved me deeply and forever, I on the other hand have never known that love, except for my kids.. I never felt that deep about anyone,,,except my kids,, I would have without thinking given my life to save theirs,,,no problem.

 I took my kids and went back to CA.I had too,, I was still in the military. Donald was in coma for a year, I went to see him , his eyes were open, but I did not feel a response.

His family finally  called me ten days after his accident,,,they didn't know if he would pull out of it right away, so they didn't send the kids to me...I went and picked them up...Mrs, Guillette his mother,,,cried about how the girls had been treated after Kathy moved in, Kathy took all the nice clothes I sent the girls and put them on her kids,,,,I don't know if it was hand me downs,,, no idea. I used to buy a good wardrobe for them every change,summer spring, fall winter... Anyway,,, I found out later when John Hancock paid out my insurance to Mrs. Guillette.. I wonder if that old fraud signed the check...Mrs G , his mother told me she paid off his arrears amount ,,, and if so ,why if there was no money?  and janice was getting a salary...she let that slip.

WAL MART

I heard this morning that wal mart is taking out life insurance policies on it's elderly work force,,,I wonder who is the recipients??wanna bet? wanna bet?

On the boomers alone WM stands to make a lot of money,,,talk about holy shit....

I got cheated out of my insurance,,, my husband and I took out insurance policy,,, we paid a long time on it,from our marriage in 1964,,, / 40 + years,,,,the insurance company told me they already paid this out to a Mrs, Guillette, they mistakenly sent me a letter asking me to pick up my check,,,from his death..I also heard Kathy took it as his long term girlfriend of two months when he had his accident and became retarded.. Or his sister and mother stole it,,to pay for him,, and they did not think of my children and that could of made our lives so much easier,,,The kids needed clothes for school, very very little left over for anything.. I have no idea who got that policy but the company John Hancock told me the policy had already been paid out.....?

I wonder who got my insurance policy.. I asked his sister who became his guardian and she told me there was no money,,,during the last year he failed to pay,but his mother paid out the funds to bring it up to date,,if there was no money why pay,, and one other thing his guardian sister also told me she was getting a salary for taking care of him,,he lived in a home ,,she visited once a month,,not bad. but she was always very cautious where money was concerned. She did bookeeping,, stuff. My kids went without so she could collect his salary..I hate her for that.
bjg
I also want to mention that the CEO of market basket was fired,,, the employees of market basket went on strike,, they want him reinstated... I was amazed democracy is not dead. She lives and breaths.... it is time we took our country back.

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If we think of ourselves

If we think of ourselves in the stream of time,,,we will except for a few be forgotten. a few decades from now no one will know our name.

 I wonder how this story of DEW will play out, will our futures be slaves to this? Or ,,,what will happen, a revolution? What will the future be for our kids,,, I know if I mention most of this to Jillian, she always says ,,"No one cares" her friends,,

 but I attribute that to their youth.. they do not mind gov't intrusion, of course they have done nothing to be punished for it yet. unfairly.. Maybe a sense of injustice only comes to those who have had freedom, or thought they had freedom. BJG

new york times and my comment

Editorial Position of the New York Times: “Thumbs Up for Gaza Slaughter”

By Norman Solomon

Global Research, July 21, 2014

Url of this article:

http://www.globalresearch.ca/editorial-position-of-the-new-york-times-thumbs-up-for-gaza-slaughter/5392384

By Abba Solomon and Norman Solomon

Over the weekend, the New York Times sent out a clear signal: the mass slaughter of civilians is acceptable when the Israeli military is doing the killing.

Under the headline “Israel’s War in Gaza,” the most powerful newspaper in the United States editorialized that such carnage is necessary. The lead editorial in the July 19 edition flashed a bright green light — reassuring the U.S. and Israeli governments that the horrors being inflicted in Gaza were not too horrible.

From its first words, the editorial methodically set out to justify what Israel was doing.

“After 10 days of aerial bombardment,” the editorial began, “Israel sent tanks and ground troops into Gaza to keep Hamas from pummeling Israeli cities with rockets and carrying out terrorist attacks via underground tunnels.”

The choice of when to date the start of the crisis was part of the methodical detour around inconvenient facts.

For instance, no mention of Prime Minister Benjamin Netanyahu’s June 30 announcement that the “human animals” of Hamas would “pay” after three Israeli teenagers kidnapped in Israeli-controlled territory in the West Bank were found dead. No mention of the absence of evidence that Hamas leadership was involved in those murders.

Likewise, absent from the editorializing sequence was Israel’s June “crackdown” in the West Bank, with home raids, area closures, imprisonment of hundreds of Hamas party activists including legislators.

Most of all, the vile core of the Times editorial was its devaluation of Palestinian lives in sharp contrast to Israeli lives.

The Times editorial declared that Hamas leaders “deserve condemnation” for military actions from civilian areas in the dense Gaza enclave — but Netanyahu merited mere expressions of “concern” about “further escalation.” Absent from the editorial was any criticism of Israel’s ongoing bombardment of homes, apartment blocks, hospitals, beaches and other civilian areas with U.S.-supplied ordinance.

At the time, there had been one Israeli death from the hostilities — and at least 260 deaths among Gazans as well as injuries in the thousands. The contrast illuminates a grotesque difference in the Times’ willingness to truly value the humanity of Israelis and Palestinians.

In the morally skewed universe that the Times editorial board evidently inhabits and eagerly promulgates, Hamas intends to “terrorize” Israeli citizens while Israel merely intends to accomplish military objectives by dropping thousands of tons of bombs on Palestinian people in Gaza.

A keynote of the editorial came when it proclaimed: “There was no way Prime Minister Benjamin Netanyahu was going to tolerate the Hamas bombardments, which are indiscriminately lobbed at Israeli population centers. Nor should he.”

While sprinkling in a handwringing couple of phrases about dead and wounded civilians, the editorial had nothing to say in condemnation of the Israeli force killing and maiming them in large numbers.

Between the lines was a tacit message to Israel: Kill more. It’s OK. Kill more.

And to Israel’s patrons in Washington: Stand behind Israel’s mass killing in Gaza. Under the unfortunate circumstances, it’s needed.

When the editorial came off the press, the Israeli military was just getting started. And no doubt Israeli leaders, from Netanyahu on down, were heartened by the good war-making seal of approval from the New York Times.

After all, the most influential media voice in the United States — where the government is the main backer of Israel’s power — was proclaiming that the mass killing by the Israeli military was regrettable but not objectionable.

The night after the Times editorial went to press, the killing escalated. Among the calamities: the Israeli military shelled the Gaza neighborhood of Shejaiya throughout the night with nonstop tank fire that allowed no emergency services to approach. Eyewitness media reports from Shejaiya recounted scenes of “absolute devastation” with bodies strewn in the streets and the ruins.

Two days after the editorial reached Times newsprint, over 150 more were counted dead in Gaza. No media enabler was more culpable than the editorializing voice of the Times, which had egged on the Israeli assault at the end of a week that began with the United Nations reporting 80 percent of the dead in Gaza were civilians.

The Times editorial was in step with President Obama, who said – apparently without intended irony — that “no country can accept rockets fired indiscriminately at citizens.” Later, matching Israeli rationales for a ground invasion, the president amended his verbiage by saying: “No nation should accept rockets being fired into its borders or terrorists tunneling into its territory.”

An important caveat can be found in the phrases “no country” and “no nation.” The stateless people who live in Gaza – 70 percent of whom are from families expelled from what’s now southern Israel – are a very different matter.

By the lights of the Oval Office and the New York Times editorial boardroom, lofty rhetoric aside, the proper role of Palestinian people is to be slaughtered into submission.

Abba A. Solomon is the author of “The Speech, and Its Context: Jacob Blaustein’s Speech ‘The Meaning of Palestine Partition to American Jews.’”

Norman Solomon is co-founder of RootsAction.org and executive director of the Institute for Public Accuracy. His books include “War Made Easy: How Presidents and Pundits Keep Spinning Us to Death.”

Copyright © 2014 Global Research

comment,, I have to take blame for this,,, we , and the american jews, support Israel..after WW 2, American jews felt so guilty of being alive and so many jews dead that they sent millions even billions to israel,,, creating in the region,," The have and the have nots,,,that is always a creation for conflict.....

One is jealous and wants what the other has , the other wants to keep what it has and not share.

Gee back in the sandbox..When everyone was poor they got along.

 To give a gift to one's enemy may work wonders, but in this case this is fueled by the American Christian Fundamentalist movement so strong in this country..They want Israel to reclaim all it's ancient lands, and Israel wants that too... a bigger country, to swallow Palestine and the Christians believe Jesus is going to come and take them all away to heaven.......

Ok,,don't let the door hit you on the ass when you leave, because I for one will not fucking miss you and your  arrogant prideful attitude. The Muslims are the same way,,, I would say more fanatical..So we got the froot loops on one side and the psychos on the other and religion mixed in for fun.....so what do we have.......a fruit loop psycho salad...

Interesting to say the least,,,then we got Russia and the Ukraine,,, the ukraine I believe has oil,  making it anyman's prize..shooting down planes by a bunch of drunks,,, such is the true nature of war?

Boy these satellites are pretty good,, I was told back in the late nineties they could see an ant on the ground.. "see" into your windows,, and I am sure they have through the wall radar...I wonder if it would work over that amount  of distance.You know satilite to your house...as  you know back scatter but  miillimeter wave I have heard is weaker and won't go any distance,,,,,I am not sure about that though, somewhere I read it...I had a good site for backscatter and mmwave camera but of course lost it,,,either it is buried in my files or erased.......It was a commercial company,, other sites had vans that drove around with high tops and long windows,,,all white..see through camera and a laptop that had software that you plugged intothe laptop a tiny antenna and you could see through walls on your laptop..

I know my harassment on my plane, this man had a laptop , three aisles back,,he was the only one on this plane with a laptop as I remember at this time laptops were not common on planes..99,,so he stuck out, had his daughter and wife with him, they filled the seats so no one could see what he was doing, he turned my mind into jello,,,for punishment all the way from seattle to boston,, 

I found out these devices that are a two way communication device is man portable,,looked like an old walkman size,,, with headphones,,,,could communicate two ways,,,so I blew big balls of fire at him all the way from san diego to seattle,,,I was going home..., so the above guy punished me with the laptop ,,,tuned in and frequencied the fuck out of my pain centers..I was a mass of quivering JELLO from seattle to boston.,,

SO my children if your not afraid ,, you should be cuz we are fucked......just think of LRAD......on a man portable size,,, they have it and a two way mind communicator, small man portable...I think it is a beam or something,,,not sure but it can plug into your head..some of the guys call it RNM,, remote neural monitoring,,,it sounds so looney though, but I think this was used on the plane above...yes this would justify and explain things.....that is what they do when you are sleeping, they program you with this,,,,interesting..

ok so what do we do, with the mideast,,,I say let it play out, we cannot do anything else...protect ourselves....,, this is why the gov't is monitoring the muslim community so intently,,,they expect reactions here. .and they could be right,,, 

the harsh price the Muslims pay for living here,

LED

LED LIGHTS ARE INVOLVED IN THIS SOMEHOW,,, when the headlights were installed at first, LED lights were to strong they were blinding everyone and I could at times feel the heat from an approaching LED car...I think high energy Led lights are used and pulsed,,maybe a flashlight...type of thing,,,

I attribute this to a very very interesting TI

Well for goodness sake the psychiatrists have known that electrical impulses administered to the brain can change thought patterns for decades now.  ECT changed the lives of many, many Americans including the greatest U.S. author, Ernest Hemingway.  And psychosurgery is making a comeback these days, so including a "chip" would be a natural course of action.  But as I recall some of the more potent antipsychotic drugs were touted as "not for everyone" only the most severe cases (e.g. risperdal).  But then again the profits for Big Pharma are the only real driving factor in psychiatry and psychology.  As is the case with chiropractors theirs is a pseudoscience.  Alas, poor Tom Cruise was crucified when he told Matt Lauer the truth, and now we move onto chips.  By the way did those monkeys volunteer for these studies?  Sounds kind of painful and final.  Someone once said that psychiatrists missed psychosurgery and ECT all those years.  Both of those treatments made them feel more like "real" doctors.

I do not/do believe in chips,,,I think they are old hat, except for heart stuff,,,and epilepsy, so I guess they are using them and as all press releases go are made out to be beneficial. ,,they do this to create confusion.. When all technology seems to have a dark side,,,I believe this  author believes she was "chipped"..and she could be,,,

 I know I had a implant of sort they used fiber optics,,till I figured it out and took them out..they put them in my forehead about one half inch in from  the hairline direct center..

they drove behind in a pick up truck and hit me with high energy LED lights, this traveled down the fiber optic for ultra wide  band is fiber optic, that is responsible for it's high speed....it does not lose  energy as it travels ,,so they hit these two tiny 3mm long fiber optic about 1 mm or so  were sticking up, never grew, stiffer than a hair, and the discomfort always always came from this area,,,

 and this is where all my pain and confusion came from..they radiated and I was pumped full of the energy from the LED light,,,....of course.,caused a lot of function problems,,,confusion, I was electrocuted once , by a pick up, I left line to enter the airport because I got hit from behind with the fiber optics in my head,,,I had not figured it out yet,, what was going on,,,,,high intensity light and I was just about electrocuted,,,I vibrated,,stick you finger in a socket and that is how I felt..

I did a U turn, I was almost gone on that one,,,,,,I shook so bad,,then a cop came behind me and asked what I was doing, I told him I was changing my shoes.....I was stalling for time so I could recover....

 I finally saw the pick up behind me with the light,,,,and figured it out , it was difficult to designate position. as the pain always came from the  front,,, I thought they had put something in my car, I even tore out the covering of the ceiling,,never thinking it came from behind, and was picked up like UWB and pumped into my body..who to fuck would think of this,,, they,,I think it was Scott Burns who put in the implants, he was active at this time,

 I went to a motel/hotel on Rt one it is still there, I wonder if they have records from that year...I was knocked out with frequencies and they had carte blanch to do whatever they wished. That was when they implanted the implants..They have to isolate you for complete control....

  remember doubt and isolation creates insanity ,,, 

we rely on others to make sure we are normal,,, we ask,,am I too fat, do you like this dress are all questions, do I fit in the tribe , am I normal.

Isolation cuts this out,,,and we begin to do

ubt ,, 

when you doubt ,, it can be put on real things, especially when they steal and sabotage and fuck with your stuff and have others fuck with what you own and what is real..change it's color, position, cracks,,,anything will do,, the Ti is made to be hypervigilent and are triggered to notice, what was done...stress..anger frustration, sadness. 

like sand running through your fingers,, you can't see them, hear them, or know who they are, but you know they are there.  Like Hastings just before they killed him, he thought it was the FBI,, I don't think so,,, if anyone went after him it was military. After all he told secrets on the military, he took out a general by publishing comments made to a trusted member. The general lost his career, his whole life long career over one journalist..
If they wanted us dead they would do it,,,many Ti's have died...we are lab rats,, an experiment to see long and short term effects of DEW and other devices.  Also the road to total control over a population. Not bad,,,but you know big things like this tend to go astray,,,like Hitler.. To big ,,to many people, to much chaos,,chaos theory,,,if something goes wrong it will.

moved my camera

I moved my camera and of course got nailed from Sousa's house,,,,straight shot through my bed...It could of been David,,, or Babe Johanson,,, they all are an easy shot....
My neck is very very painful,,,hard to swallow and I feel parts of my neck I never felt before,,,like something sticking out....or in....

I made pasta with basil pasto, pine nuts,,,reall good,,,lemon, oil, simple but good..
goat cheesse and capers sprinkled would be good too.I have to cut the lantana down some to see up the street...need another camera and have decided to get bud a inner van camera....
A long night and a long day,,, worked out with the bungee cords will try to do it every day...good workout...gosh I was in good shape when I came back from CA. really good shape.....
bjg,,,.