Thursday, February 13, 2014
Wednesday, February 12, 2014
Today I went for a walk
12 Februaty 13
I had to mail a letter,, I walked up the street and as I was walking Chris Yaikus's stepson walked home from his bus stop.. I asked him " Why are you such an asshole, a Stazi
This is the boy that pulsed my house from between Cherie's garage and her house,, he jumped over his 4 foot fence in the back walked down ten feet and pulsed away at my house. He almost killed me a couple of times the pulses were so strong. I stayed in bed for days just to cope. Devastating.
He is a runner,, I came back down Rockdale to walk over to the hill in the cemetery,, to walk up it for exercise,,, I saw him run past me, and when I came down the hill he ran by again,, I asked him , "Why are you a Nazi.?" he looked at me and kept going,,, I wonder what he is thinking of at this time..
he's indeed a runner as in a marathon. type.. Easy and quick for him to run the few steps to his house from the back road and come out the front door to go to school, his dad gave him a ride and was waiting in the truck for him...
He had on a distinct black pants, white shirt and black jacket , he had the jacket zipped up, but the shirt hung below the jacket iin a distinct way,,, the bottom on the jacket was open a bit to, so it looked like a sharp white triangle,,,and I saw this outfit through the opening between house and garage, and his dark hair, , a few minutes later as he jumped the fence and went into the house the back way,,, he walked out the front door in the same distinct black and white jacket shirt and pants got in his father's truck and was taken to school, as I stood and watched them drive by,
. He cam out the front door the same white configuration in the front, a white strip around the bottom of the jacket and the white sharp triangle up the bottom front of the jacket. bjg.. I don't think he realized I saw him down back or how he was dressed and easily recognized. bjg
Tuesday, February 11, 2014
Two videos that won't work
The top video that won't play ,I am walkiing home from the bus stop and was getting hit,,, a lot, so I turned aorund to film it and I can see several pulses coming my way,, they are only spritzes of light to others,,but this stuff burns,, kind of like a long distance static high intensity electricity. There is one shot of the whole beam but you got to look close and ,,,these videos will not play. so I have put them on my back up, for they play on my desktop,,, I can get pictures here , but it seems , one cannot put video..here at least successfully.. Oh well ..i shall leave them here anyway to show others I attempted to show what has been hitting me.. and this stuff goes through walls,, goes through anythinig for they hit me within my apt with this stuff as well. The cars going by are on one of the main st. and it appears that a car parks across the street in the closed gas station , park and shoots from there, Rather than them driving by as they usually do.. Someone wanted me real bad,,, so much effort.bjg
Feeling Adult
I was 13 and feeling very adult, I was talking to my mother and said the word hell,,, her slap came out of no where, and knocked my head in the corner... I never swore again after that...Never,,not until I joined the Navy and when I first started to swear in the Navy,I was 35,,, I stuttered.. it was funny for I realized what was going on,,but once I got going,, I had the worst potty mouth ever,,, my senior chief on my tug told me I could not go home for leave, everyone would be appalled at the mouth I had and he was right,..
I think the Navy was the happiest time of my life..It just was. I had so many adventures,,never a boring moment.
Senior chief was my boss in charge of the crew on my Tug,, The Petasharo.. tugs all have Indian Names,,, I do not know why. Senior Chief and I were the same age, I think he was a couple of years older than me, I am not going to tell you who he looks like,,,ok,,, he looked just like Howdy Doody,,, big grin, big ears, freckles.. but in a handsome sort of way. He was a country boy well versed in animal breeding. One night I was on watch,,, tug can sink in 20 minutes so you have to have a watch, to watch in case one sinks and alert others. We all took turns those in the lower ranks.
One night I was passing through the pilot house and out of the dark my name was called and it was SC. He called me and asked me to lie next to him, and I did, he did his thing, it was nothing to me sexually. But he told me it was the greatest time of his life. I was glad to oblige as we were friends and I think I was in love with him,he was married and he told me he would never leave his wife as he loved her,, that was fine with me, I never wanted to get married again and not even have a relationship at that time. I was just not interested.
A short time passed and one day the crew was on board for the day,,SC usually laid down after lunch , we had an hour off..At least I thought so he always went to his cabin,,
I heard a psst and he called me into his cabin,,, I can't remember how I got naked, but he seemed happy and impressed with me, My personal physician , civilian, took off my sheet in San Diego and commented on how beautiful I was, I never thought about it.
I had men try to do this all my life,,,sneaky assholes,,,my daughters suffered the same indignity, Men are like that,,sneaky assholes. Always peeking.
Let me tell you, my toes curled, my eyeballs rolled back in my head, and a scream started in the back of my throat,with my mouth closed,,, I had no idea I was screaming,, It was the best time of my life too. I still think of it,, it keeps me warm on my lonely nights...
He covered my mouth as I was going into full scream, He did not want the crew to hear as everyone was aboard. That broke the realm I was in, but still it was way up there...the best sexual encounter of my life and it set the bar very high for those who came after him,,no one matched him, ever.
That was the only time for us, the last for him and the last for me with him..
I spoke to a Muslim friend fo mine and he said one of the reasons virginity is so important to Muslim men is because his wife will always think he is the best in bed,,for she will know nothing else. That shows a huge insecurity on his part. His talents are so poor. No?
I left to go to go to work in the clinic on base,,,I hated it, I thought of them as all fairies,,not in the real Navy, Later I went to dental hygiene school in San Diego, , bob had gotten me into the dental clinic as assistant and later I went to Ca. for hygiene school,, he felt that was safer than the tugs for me,,he was probably right,, most men in the clinics were gay.
He kept talking about transferring to the clinic and I kept saying no, he finally pressed me and told me, I had to sign some paper,,s this was Friday,, I signed, thinking I had a couple of weeks before I was to leave but by that Monday I was told I had to leave the tugs,,he had already put all the paperwork through and got permission from the CO of the base,,, he had it all lined up. I think he loved me too. The tugs for a woman went no where for a career or even a job on the outside and that was one of the reasons I joined the Navy,, for job training.
He made sure I was gotten off the tugs, he knew after he left, he was retiring, I would be open game for the other men there. I lived under his protection as his crew person. All the women under him was afforded his protection. I was never approached or raped or touched even by the boat crews. My rapist was a helicopter pilot,who was married and felt I was his property,,that is another story for another time.
I think the Navy was the happiest time of my life..It just was. I had so many adventures,,never a boring moment.
Senior chief was my boss in charge of the crew on my Tug,, The Petasharo.. tugs all have Indian Names,,, I do not know why. Senior Chief and I were the same age, I think he was a couple of years older than me, I am not going to tell you who he looks like,,,ok,,, he looked just like Howdy Doody,,, big grin, big ears, freckles.. but in a handsome sort of way. He was a country boy well versed in animal breeding. One night I was on watch,,, tug can sink in 20 minutes so you have to have a watch, to watch in case one sinks and alert others. We all took turns those in the lower ranks.
One night I was passing through the pilot house and out of the dark my name was called and it was SC. He called me and asked me to lie next to him, and I did, he did his thing, it was nothing to me sexually. But he told me it was the greatest time of his life. I was glad to oblige as we were friends and I think I was in love with him,he was married and he told me he would never leave his wife as he loved her,, that was fine with me, I never wanted to get married again and not even have a relationship at that time. I was just not interested.
A short time passed and one day the crew was on board for the day,,SC usually laid down after lunch , we had an hour off..At least I thought so he always went to his cabin,,
I heard a psst and he called me into his cabin,,, I can't remember how I got naked, but he seemed happy and impressed with me, My personal physician , civilian, took off my sheet in San Diego and commented on how beautiful I was, I never thought about it.
I had men try to do this all my life,,,sneaky assholes,,,my daughters suffered the same indignity, Men are like that,,sneaky assholes. Always peeking.
Let me tell you, my toes curled, my eyeballs rolled back in my head, and a scream started in the back of my throat,with my mouth closed,,, I had no idea I was screaming,, It was the best time of my life too. I still think of it,, it keeps me warm on my lonely nights...
He covered my mouth as I was going into full scream, He did not want the crew to hear as everyone was aboard. That broke the realm I was in, but still it was way up there...the best sexual encounter of my life and it set the bar very high for those who came after him,,no one matched him, ever.
That was the only time for us, the last for him and the last for me with him..
I spoke to a Muslim friend fo mine and he said one of the reasons virginity is so important to Muslim men is because his wife will always think he is the best in bed,,for she will know nothing else. That shows a huge insecurity on his part. His talents are so poor. No?
I left to go to go to work in the clinic on base,,,I hated it, I thought of them as all fairies,,not in the real Navy, Later I went to dental hygiene school in San Diego, , bob had gotten me into the dental clinic as assistant and later I went to Ca. for hygiene school,, he felt that was safer than the tugs for me,,he was probably right,, most men in the clinics were gay.
He kept talking about transferring to the clinic and I kept saying no, he finally pressed me and told me, I had to sign some paper,,s this was Friday,, I signed, thinking I had a couple of weeks before I was to leave but by that Monday I was told I had to leave the tugs,,he had already put all the paperwork through and got permission from the CO of the base,,, he had it all lined up. I think he loved me too. The tugs for a woman went no where for a career or even a job on the outside and that was one of the reasons I joined the Navy,, for job training.
He made sure I was gotten off the tugs, he knew after he left, he was retiring, I would be open game for the other men there. I lived under his protection as his crew person. All the women under him was afforded his protection. I was never approached or raped or touched even by the boat crews. My rapist was a helicopter pilot,who was married and felt I was his property,,that is another story for another time.
Monday, February 10, 2014
EG/Scott and John
I picketed Eastman Gelatin, a subsidiary of Kodak,, our film used to be coated with a thin film of gelatin, it's kinda ironic, Kodak had invented digital technology, but failed to utilize it.
The gelatin was produced in our town and Eastman Gelatin's plant was right downtown,, I could spit from my front door to their plant,, This is why Peabody's water was so polluted, EG used it for It's process.
I picketed the plant on a summer day, on Allen's Lane. I knew EG was part of all of this and it was,, part of my targeting,, how do I know without doubt?
As I stood outside their Allen's Lane gate a black pick up came down Allen's Lane from Emerson Park way and drove into the plant, I got his license plate number. This pick up drove out of the plant a few minutes later, drove up Allen's lane to Washington St. Drove up Washington St. toward Lynn St. and entered EG land from the gate on Washington St. I watched his headlights as he drove onto EG property. He drove behind me and zapped me from the bushes behind me,.. as it was getting dark and starting to rain, I figured it was time to leave anyway so I left. That was Scott Burns in the black pick up truck, he is also the one who followed me out west and handed me off at the grand canyon.,, he is married to Ann Marie Burns who works for Peabody housing,,, They live on Gardner St.
I had a friend who worked for the State Police and this was before the police were a big part of this harassment. I had befriended John and we liked each other , he also knew I was being terrorized. He ran the pick up truck license plate I had collected,,, and Scott Burns name , who worked for EG came up...
Later this was stolen out of my papers, much of my papers were gone through and much was stolen...This was part of it, at that time I did not know they would incessantly enter my place of residence and continue to steal from me , but they did. No one realizes what is being done to them at first..Not really. All evidence is destroyed.
Later John had someone follow me,, when I told him I was being followed, he told me it was two people, always two people following me, I never told him it was always two people,,
I just told him I was being followed.
When things got real bad , he told me I could sleep in their parking lot, the back lot of the state police which I did a couple of times,, till he was transferred,,,and a new co was appointed who actually came out of the police barracks and told me to leave. I had quietly parked my car and settled to sleep. It was early morning as usual ,, sleep deprivation has always been part of this harassment, if your tired and broke and on the run , you cannot fight back. Isolated for control. It gives the appearance of being mentally ill.
The gelatin was produced in our town and Eastman Gelatin's plant was right downtown,, I could spit from my front door to their plant,, This is why Peabody's water was so polluted, EG used it for It's process.
I picketed the plant on a summer day, on Allen's Lane. I knew EG was part of all of this and it was,, part of my targeting,, how do I know without doubt?
As I stood outside their Allen's Lane gate a black pick up came down Allen's Lane from Emerson Park way and drove into the plant, I got his license plate number. This pick up drove out of the plant a few minutes later, drove up Allen's lane to Washington St. Drove up Washington St. toward Lynn St. and entered EG land from the gate on Washington St. I watched his headlights as he drove onto EG property. He drove behind me and zapped me from the bushes behind me,.. as it was getting dark and starting to rain, I figured it was time to leave anyway so I left. That was Scott Burns in the black pick up truck, he is also the one who followed me out west and handed me off at the grand canyon.,, he is married to Ann Marie Burns who works for Peabody housing,,, They live on Gardner St.
I had a friend who worked for the State Police and this was before the police were a big part of this harassment. I had befriended John and we liked each other , he also knew I was being terrorized. He ran the pick up truck license plate I had collected,,, and Scott Burns name , who worked for EG came up...
Later this was stolen out of my papers, much of my papers were gone through and much was stolen...This was part of it, at that time I did not know they would incessantly enter my place of residence and continue to steal from me , but they did. No one realizes what is being done to them at first..Not really. All evidence is destroyed.
Later John had someone follow me,, when I told him I was being followed, he told me it was two people, always two people following me, I never told him it was always two people,,
I just told him I was being followed.
When things got real bad , he told me I could sleep in their parking lot, the back lot of the state police which I did a couple of times,, till he was transferred,,,and a new co was appointed who actually came out of the police barracks and told me to leave. I had quietly parked my car and settled to sleep. It was early morning as usual ,, sleep deprivation has always been part of this harassment, if your tired and broke and on the run , you cannot fight back. Isolated for control. It gives the appearance of being mentally ill.
Saturday, February 8, 2014
Talkshoe call I was listening to/NSA/democracynow.org
I am listening to a Talkshoe Ti call and it is interesting. believe it or not...ffchs
He has a special guest tonight, I disagree with some of what he says ,, other things he is right on...speaking of blue light,,,How to see or not to see the blue pulses....he's a salesman,selling bullshit. They even played the heartstrings card,,for sympathy,I could say anything, or ask anythiing,,,, as usual those who ask to many questions are muted.
He says some people can see it,the blue pulse, others cannot. He says it depends on the frequency. I can see it and have even poorly photographed it. I know it is photographable and if my camera can pick it up,, then anyone else can see the blue pulses, same color as the Wii base unit...highest level of laser.Blue.
.
Now his call is going political religious,,, boring..this guys recommended this shielding blanket,,, John says his shielding is nickel and cu+?
Earlier this guy said a billboard,, the big ones they put on buildings and along side the road,,, they are attaching voice to skull,, speakers on top of buildings to target people walking by , this is ATC devices Woody Norris,,, is creating a nightmare,,, hearing advertisements in your head whether you like it or not..He also noted one cannot complain about noise , there is no overt noise to complain about,, noise pollution. You hear it in your head wether you like it or not.
The white supremacists is talking about gays,and end times,, and all that crap and this guy is anti gay,,, Derrick is gay!! lol I wonder if Derrick is listening. The white supremacist has taken over Derricks call ,,, so funny.....they are on a anti Muslim kick.
He is talking about a blanket he bought and how they feel the radio frequencies hit it like rain,,some sort of a blocking radio frequency blanket,,, he did not say what it was made of ,, at least I did not hear that.,,,,.this blanket is 5 cents a square inch..Sean and Barbara
it is not a radio frequency I think it is static electricity,,thrown out in a spray,, used as a locator... I know Peabody police have this and they used it to locate me when It was 3 am,, and I was in a dark dark parking lot,,, the book plant over on county road. they were across the way in the school parking lot.. lobbing this spray of static electricity at me,looking for me
I stood behind a tree to hide and the tree absorbed the spark,,, the car did not , I do not know if it went through the car but I heard the sparks hit the car and it sounded like rain on the roof..it was not raining..
I do not think this was to harass, but a LOCATOR..I do not know how the perps received feedback.
Now he is talking about his head being turned against his will, because of endorphins,,,
my head is turned by being pulsed and they can use these forces to twist muscles,,turn my head..., they pulse my neck all the time,,, its a wonder I can lift my head,,,my muscles must be full of holes..it feels like it. Lydia said they did this to her long ago.
I have often said this technology is way far advanced than most realize,but who are you going to complain too? So far advanced it sounds like a science fiction movie, but if they can think it,it has been said they can and will make it.
This program is covert , the gov't will not let this go public until 50 years when we, who have had these devices used on them are all dead. No evidence . No voices in protest.
listen to Democracynow.org this date,10 Feb.2014.
He has a special guest tonight, I disagree with some of what he says ,, other things he is right on...speaking of blue light,,,How to see or not to see the blue pulses....he's a salesman,selling bullshit. They even played the heartstrings card,,for sympathy,I could say anything, or ask anythiing,,,, as usual those who ask to many questions are muted.
He says some people can see it,the blue pulse, others cannot. He says it depends on the frequency. I can see it and have even poorly photographed it. I know it is photographable and if my camera can pick it up,, then anyone else can see the blue pulses, same color as the Wii base unit...highest level of laser.Blue.
.
Now his call is going political religious,,, boring..this guys recommended this shielding blanket,,, John says his shielding is nickel and cu+?
Earlier this guy said a billboard,, the big ones they put on buildings and along side the road,,, they are attaching voice to skull,, speakers on top of buildings to target people walking by , this is ATC devices Woody Norris,,, is creating a nightmare,,, hearing advertisements in your head whether you like it or not..He also noted one cannot complain about noise , there is no overt noise to complain about,, noise pollution. You hear it in your head wether you like it or not.
The white supremacists is talking about gays,and end times,, and all that crap and this guy is anti gay,,, Derrick is gay!! lol I wonder if Derrick is listening. The white supremacist has taken over Derricks call ,,, so funny.....they are on a anti Muslim kick.
He is talking about a blanket he bought and how they feel the radio frequencies hit it like rain,,some sort of a blocking radio frequency blanket,,, he did not say what it was made of ,, at least I did not hear that.,,,,.this blanket is 5 cents a square inch..Sean and Barbara
it is not a radio frequency I think it is static electricity,,thrown out in a spray,, used as a locator... I know Peabody police have this and they used it to locate me when It was 3 am,, and I was in a dark dark parking lot,,, the book plant over on county road. they were across the way in the school parking lot.. lobbing this spray of static electricity at me,looking for me
I stood behind a tree to hide and the tree absorbed the spark,,, the car did not , I do not know if it went through the car but I heard the sparks hit the car and it sounded like rain on the roof..it was not raining..
I do not think this was to harass, but a LOCATOR..I do not know how the perps received feedback.
Now he is talking about his head being turned against his will, because of endorphins,,,
my head is turned by being pulsed and they can use these forces to twist muscles,,turn my head..., they pulse my neck all the time,,, its a wonder I can lift my head,,,my muscles must be full of holes..it feels like it. Lydia said they did this to her long ago.
I have often said this technology is way far advanced than most realize,but who are you going to complain too? So far advanced it sounds like a science fiction movie, but if they can think it,it has been said they can and will make it.
This program is covert , the gov't will not let this go public until 50 years when we, who have had these devices used on them are all dead. No evidence . No voices in protest.
listen to Democracynow.org this date,10 Feb.2014.
Death By Metadata: Jeremy Scahill & Glenn Greenwald Reveal NSA Role in Assassinations Overseas
http://www.democracynow.org/2014/2/10/death_by_metadata_jeremy_scahill_glenn
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