The Sparkler

Ever since all this began,,I have been hit with what I call is a sparkler,because that it what it looks like.   It seems to be a directed Sparkler and feels like what a sparkler would feel like. I have also been hit with energy/pulse, that is like being given a super duper nicotine tablet. Only this is instantaneous. 

Sometimes it is just one zap,,other times it is a spray. You can see it as it whips by you.. It burns and is bright white light...I do not know if they have to aim it at me to hit me, or does my body from all the harassment have developed a charge,,or  is there some kind of an implant,,,I know that fiber optics was used as implant,one time,,,a passive system directing the energy aimed at you. I was told the spray is a locator and  can be long distance.

I relayed the story of Forest St. in a past post here...and wonder if the pulse that hit me in the sternum,bounced off, hit my clavicle,bounced off,,and lodged in the  back of my throat.. I often wondered why that was done..To scare me or like the military shots that are blown into the new recruits was this some sort of a blown in implant,,nanotechnology? Who knows,,,

The gov't is capable of much experimentation.  I only know that no matter where I am, this stuff finds me,,,the pulses can curve,,not 90 degrees, but a curve nevertheless,,,I have seen that with my own eyes several times.  

I have seen perps plant a device in a bush and set it off and it will hit my head consistently. As it hits it clicks,,, Sometimes , though not all, it seems to enter the skull on one side, go through the brain and click on the inside of the skull on the other side,,,losing energy and not able to make it through the skull on the other side.The bone is to dense for exit.

Yaikus, my neighbor has this type of device and has used it on me many times.  

What fun huh.. hunted and electrocuted by one's neighbors,,welcome to the New United States of American,,electronic slavery at its best.

John Roberts US Supreme Court leader

John Roberts was picked by Bush Jr.  He heads the supreme court and his attitude can sway other members to vote his way..For instance all 5 men voted on the Supreme Court about changing the VRA,,,picture and list below.

They just changed the VRA,,Voting Rights Act,

(1965 by Johnson,,I have long admired him, he went against his southern controllers and was president for all the people as presidents must be,,,,)

prohibits discrimination in voting,
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Voting_Rights_Act_of_1965

Echoing the language of the 15th Amendment, the Act prohibits states and local governments from imposing any "voting qualification or prerequisite to voting, or standard, practice, or procedure ... to deny or abridge the right of any citizen of the United States to vote on account of race or color.
In the 2013 case Shelby County v. Holder, the United States Supreme Court struck down Section 4(b) of the Act and its formula for requiring preclearance as unconstitutional based on current conditions, saying it was rational and needed at the time it was enacted but is no longer necessary.[12] The preclearance provision itself was not struck down, but it currently has no effect unless or until Congress passes a new formula.[13]The Act is widely considered a landmark in civil-rights legislation,[8] though some of its provisions have sparked political controversy. During the debate over the 2006 extension, some Republican members of Congress objected to renewing the preclearance requirement (the Act's primary enforcement provision), arguing that it represents an overreach of federal power and places unwarranted bureaucratic demands on Southern states that have long since abandoned the discriminatory practices the Act was meant to eradicate.[9] Conservative legislators also opposed requiring states with large Spanish-speaking populations to provide bilingual ballots.[10] Congress nonetheless voted to extend the Act for twenty-five years with its original enforcement provisions left intact ,,,,wikipedia.

on a 5-4 decision. All the women voted to leave it alone... This change will make it easier for  those in power to block people and groups of people from voting, this is what Martin Luther King demonstrated for. So most of what all that demonstrating was done for has,,, from what I understand ,,,has changed and made moot, and many minorities can be blocked. It is a measure of control.

I have mixed feelings over this,,,I know the largest group of people who are in the country are Mexicans...Read my past post on Latinos and how I feel about it. The country in the future will be controlled by a Mexican contingent if the birth rate continues. They must realize that they have to put this country first if they want to be true Americans,,many don't,, their loyalty is to Mexico.

But the constitution is the constitution and that is that.

The mixed feelings are I do not want the VRA to be dismissed,,,you cannot deny an American citizen the right to vote,, the reason this is done, is to control who votes for whom. But I do not feel the country should be taken over by the Mexicans either, they cannot even run their own country. Never mind this one.. Being in power is difficult.

This is extremely important also, for if elected in office some crazy nuts,,,we can't vote them out, they will block our votes,,,as is happening now,,,,our country is liberal,,we all understand that majority rules and that is for the people and they are liberal,,,,

Many groups are funded by ALEC,,check out past post on this group. Conservative Fundamentalist movement,,they think long term, so we have to too. Their hero is Reagan. An actor who played the presidential part well, he fooled the people with one hand and held a knife behind his back in the other, he gave more favors to his rich friends than anyone else..Stealing from the general pool..He helped us go broke..I blame him and his party of control who claims a world wide war against them,,

They wonder why so many people are at war with them , Maybe there is a good reason..your controlling take-over assholes who believe in an invisible daddy who will take care of all your needs if you jabber in his ear enough and be "good", and your not "good" your self centered controlling religous nuts You want this country to be high percentage of Christians, to be the controlling factor.

Well the silent sin of the Christian Conservatives is usually a blow job by a prostitute,,, sex rules all and do not forget this..ever. It is our most controlling emotion, hormone, and actions. 

If you look at the Christian fundamentalist conservative party you will see Roberts's Agenda.  To take over the country,,, they are at war with the Muslims, they want to put women back into the home. No birth control. No abortions. Total control,,,who knows maybe polygamy..For women this is definitely a step back. 

I shouldn't say that , one does not like to give them ideas...Men would love that. Did you know most of the women in Polygamist homes are collecting welfare, several of them in one home,,,,,We are supporting polygamy in this country with our tax dollars,,

Starvation is an excellent birth control.

You control our sexual inclinations and you control the person. Birth control, abortions, Viagra, you control the political and religious future of the country...birth rate = votes... 

Who rules the schools rules the nation, who rules the votes rules the nation.

The Roberts Court, 2010
Back row (left to right): Sonia Sotomayor, Stephen G. Breyer, Samuel A. Alito, and Elena Kagan. Front row (left to right): Clarence Thomas,Antonin Scalia, Chief Justice John G. Roberts, Anthony Kennedy, andRuth Bader Ginsburg

Francisco Sousa

lives up the street,,, kinda stupid,,,definitely not a thinker,,very sympathetic  to Torigian's family,, he is Portuguese, and I think Torigian was part or whole Portuguese,,he lives next door to David Diachisin who has gone on vaca. He is one of the main perps on this street. Very loyal stupid dog to the Torigian family,  He's the meter reader. He started harassing me the minute I moved in..

,I saw this black vehicle drive by and zap the shit out of the house.... it was the same black vehicle parked outside his house today,,I wonder if it was his son.

Sousa zapped me from his front porch as I walked across the street to the lake,,,it was a red pulse that burned and had force,,,you figure it out..
So Sousa gets his own post and I will keep adding information here as I think of the past and it happens in the future/present,,,,,matter of fact each perp that I know, I will post their name and will get a separate page to add too as events occur.


Big news today,,,,Quebec train wreck and the Zimmerman trial and of course Alda's call on Talkshoe is always interesting,,,99521

From the GAP, Gov't accountability project and some links

I believe the gov't perfected these techniques on Targeted individuals,,TI's... I  know they swept through my life and have noted and collected data on everyone I touched,,,as in  Bill Binney's program and demonstration before MIT showed. Read the Post here about Bill Binney. It is real easy once you understand how it works...Also I read  the article about the US gov't going through everyone's mail...surprise surprise surprise, they have been doing that for years...Now ,, the technique has changed and to cover their tracks,,,my perps they are going after my relatives and using them and manipulating them against me..Are we surprised??? Not I.

The New York Times: Using Email Data to Connect to Dots of Your Life
July 5, 2013

Summary: This blog post and accompanying video details how email meta data can be used to “connect the dots of your life story:”

Key Quote: I learned this from participating in Immersion, a project by M.I.T.’s Media Laboratory, earlier reported by my colleague Juliet Lapidos. Immersion is a tool that mines your e-mail metadata and automatically stitches it all together into an interactive graphic. The result is a creepy spider web showing all the people you’ve corresponded with, how they know each other, and who your closest friends and professional partners are. 

USA Today: Media Can't Let Snowden Drama Overshadow Substance
July 9, 2013

Summary: Yet another solid column from USA Today about how the media needs to remain focused on Snowden’s disclosures and the resulting developments that have emerged about the FISA court, namely The New York Times article from this past weekend about the Court’s creation of a “secret body of law,” and Judge Robertson’s assertions cited above.

9 July 13, Boston State House Meeting and other thoughts.

Yesterday was the meeting at the Boston State house,,,,a forum for many bills, immigration, agricultural, trans gender,, so many men are becoming women,,,the ugliest women you ever saw.they are beyond uglyyyyyy, they are uuuuuuuuuugly,,please if you wish to be woman at least be a good looking one..or stay the man you are.. We don't want you...
I'm telling you we are not a pretty people,,, so many ugly,fat,poorly dressed, people in one spot.,our fashion sense is up our ass,  I may be poor but I do not have to dress poor. You too transgender.

 A petition was sent around the room, I thought this a good tactic for us as Ti's to do, even if we do not speak, to do a petition. I learned much from this experience. I shall put that info in an other post.

Humane society spoke and a bunch of cops talking about privacy and surveillance which is what I was there for. Peter taped them. I hope he sends me a copy as I was not listening. I saw the importance of it. 

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Privacy and  Surveillance,,,I was with 6 other targeted individuals.. nice people. all of them...One of the TI's spoke of her harassment and told me that a path of dead vegetation that shows the harassment from the perps house to the TI's house... I also have noticed dead vegetation from my perps house to my house... they have killed several plants on this path to me. I also got the impression she was not the only target in her neighborhood.

At 12:30 we got in line to sign in and to speak, we went as a panel.  Peter, Kate, Arlene, Will, Camille Elsy, and me. It was great,, the 7 of us banded together.  the day was cooler than the fry we came out of for the past week. Thank goodness for that. I had to take a bus,, train and trolley to arrive. Long trip.

As I said we got in line to sign in with many many others, we were ushered into a room and it was to small  almost everyone was standing room only, very inadequate seating, so they sent us to a larger room for the forum,  and it was an all day affair and went into the night.The air was finally put on at about 6 pm,  I think many were groggy from lack of oxygen.

 I did not get to speak because I had to leave to catch the last bus from the train station to home, otherwise it would of been a loooooong walk home. So I never did get to speak but found out the chairwoman's name and will send her an email with my thoughts. Lucky her. 

The more I meet and speak with other TI's the more I am convinced this program is a Mental Surveillance program, the shrinks profiled us. A pox on their house !!  Everyone seems a bit shaky, Just a little bit off, but my question is who would not be if they were targeted and also what is normal. I know because of my severe targeting I am much changed in personality. More suspicious of people, less apt to be open, more aware of those around me and their intentions, etc. I have come to hate people for their badness.

So we sat and we sat and we sat,, I have to give it to the chair person and her cohorts, they sat for hours in their chairs, never getting up and also listening... Lots of fortitude there. One guy on my end I felt pity for he looked pretty brain dead from it all. vacant stare..

Kate,,leader of our pack was being pulsed continuously and I did know this for a fact as we got off the elevator a pulse came through and hit her and kept going the same bright blue pulses that I see float through my room,it was right in front of me, microwave,,same blue as the Wii and that system works on microwave, it has to , the speed of the microwave makes the game possible.To us the delay in response from the game ,,we do not feel it, because it is so minute. But it does have a delay, incredible speed , that speed makes the game,,,( without to us a seeming delay),,,, possible. 

 I was also pulsed several times, but I ignored them, just changing my seat. Kate stayed in one position.  I observed during the day that a maintenance person came in and stood in front of us, maintenance has always been a big part of my targeting, with security and the police part of it. . He went away,,,later as I was leaving, maintenance came in again,,navy blue t-shirt with the logo of the state gov't on it, big belly,,,and security joined him standing just in front of us separated by a small petition in front of our seats. 

The pulsing hitting Kate and also myself and others for Arlene was in tune with it as well. She left early, as well as Will, though both were there for most of the day and Will took a day off his job to attend., so to us Ti's this was a big deal..

 I do not know yet what happened after I left and will add to it here as it is relayed to me... I was exhausted and glad to be on my way home,,, thankful to catch the last bus home,,missing the next to last bus by minutes was upsetting. Scared somehow that the last bus would not come as I said a lonnnnnng walk home. I was followed home and my perps made sure I arrived. My perp sat next to me on the bus and spoke of Clairmont, where I lived in Ca. He said he lived there also ,,, and of course as we rode the bus and spoke of Clairmont, the stop on the bus was at Clairmont St. at this time in our conversation, timed well. They go to a lot of bother if you ask me... That definitely told me he was a perp and as I walked home a car drove by, down St. Annes by me on Woodward and then back out... not driving home. Go away!!

I am disappointed not to speak,,, at first I was going to warn the panel  about the dangers that are in front of them , that the laws are late and soooooooooo inadequate. That these weapons are going to be used by crime and those with their own agendas, that they will be targeted as well, and their children, for children are not exempt ,this shit is in all our agendas, I am only in front of you on the bell curve as this runs through our society as a holocaust as Schriner  calls it, they will be targeted ,not only by opposing parties for their seat but by crime people,,   David Schriner's statement before the US Congress,,,25 Feb. 1998,, titled, 

"The design and fabrication of a damage inflicting RF weapons by back yard methods."  

I will send this to the chairperson in it's entirety. Hoping she does read it, and take heed. That someone like my neighbors can make frequency, beam and pulse devices in their garage. I know the mechanical engineer across the street has thru the wall radar and pulsed weapons of a great severity, I have suffered from it all and caught him on one occasion using the thru the Wall Camera. It's presence and effects were readily apparent as I walked toward and through, thru the wall radar, one could see it as well as feel it, the camera is usually only used quickly, or when time has changed and they want to find me,, pulsed on and off quickly.  This beam was steady as a beam is,, and I walked right into it and within one second it was turned off. It came from Jeremiah and Cherie Rathburn's house. Evidently they were watching Stacia and me next door, the beam seemed to be in the middle of our properties, so it hit both houses. Cherie the biggest gossip on the street must be in heaven.

Stacia is the old lady next door and the Rathburn's caretake her house during the winter and lots of harassment is from Stacia's  house. One night I was pulsed so bad,, I got out of bed and went to  look for the place where the pulsing came  from,,As I climbed my stairs to go out,another pulse came through my fence and I saw it, and as I opened my door,, I heard the definite and loud click of Stacia's cellar door close as I got nearer the fence. So whomever was pulsing me had access to Stacia's house at night for this was at 3 am.  Who else would have a key, know how deeply Stacia sleeps and that she is partially very hard of hearing , but the Rathburns or whom they told. 

I feel they have been a great deal of my targeting. Very good friends with David Diachision, city hall employee. On a past post I spoke of getting hit from the Rathburn's Wii, I believe this Wii was modified,,, the pulses increased to weaponry. and the funny thing about it is the pulses, for I investigated the source, I knew the snaps and zaps I suffered came from Cherie's patio where she had her Wii, I saw her son using it and I investigated,, for I was being hit at this time and could see the pulses, so I followed them,,,Her oldest son was using it, the shades were up and he was plainly seen. 

So people can make this weaponry in their workshops like Jeremiah has in his so called garage. A mechanical engineer,I think a compressor can be converted as well as the x box used as a force multiplier for acoustics weapons, A guitar. The strings plucked ,Vibration up the ass and the initial pulse goes right through you and has force,,knock you down too,  ,, put this guitar on the floor over my head turn the xbox volume up, I wonder if that would work, or am I missing something?  and the string plucked as the x box roles.. A force multiplier. Thank you Alda for that suggestion. Much gratitude. I wish I could try it and I think the xbox wireless could be modified,,or all of this could be a decoy. Or some.  Or none.

Well I was going to warn this forum's panel,, but you know,,, I changed my mind, I was going to tell them,,,good enjoy your fucking drones,,, I do not know if it is a security problem, are we so riddled with crime we need this technology on our streets or is it an economic problem as this chunk of change is huge and is keeping this part of our technology sector going, worth billions, to those who use , to those who build, and those who buy.  

Or are we really that bad, crime riddled.. I know several police depts. will use these drones until their  broken, I wonder how much for maintenance, I wonder how delicate they are. A small one can be bought at the mall for , I have heard it is now down to 100 bucks. We shall see,, maybe I can buy one to  peruse the area.. Sending it up to check out things.It is said they are silent. cameras, sound, action. fun.

Now as far as those in the legislation who are making the laws, I hope you get pulsed, for only then can you understand how devastating these weapons are...

Schriner within seconds made the car dead,,,,, I emailed him asking him, how would this feel to a person? He never responded or never got the email. I think it would make a person dead as well,, for we run on electricity.

I wanted to tell this panel of lawmakers welcome to my world..

1. Make up a petition, with fliers explaining our cause to  be handed out as well

2. When you go before the forum panel hand  out folders with your comments, as a panel do it all together in one folder.

3. Short , Sweet , and to the point.

4.. Go early to sign in

5.. Be presentable, don't look poor, Don't look confused. If targeted ignore it.

try to reread your comments many times to try to memorize it, for it makes better reading if you do have to read it...you can at least glance at the panel once in a while, eye contact is important, speak moderately and within the time frame given,,we were given 3 minutes.  Some spoke longer like the ACLU.

6.. When speaking I wear eye catching bright colors,,after all I want all eyes on me.

7. Do not for goodness sake ramble, that is what they expect and do not repeat information, if you do 

rephrase it.

8. Make sure you use well documented sources for your statements.

9. Be observant,,,watch maintenance and security. 

10 Try to keep track of who and what is around you and as a TI that should be easy..
11. Be patient and expect it to be a long process
12. Bring water and something to eat
13. Comfortable shoes a must
14. relax
15. think of why you are there and how important it is to you

I will add to this as other ideas and thoughts of the day come to me..I shall email this to many. 

THE LIST 9 July 13, STATE HOUSE BOSTON

1. Make up a petition, with fliers explaining our cause to  be handed out as well

2. When you go before the forum panel hand  out folders with your comments, as a panel do it all together in one folder.

3. Short , Sweet , and to the point.

4.. Go early to sign in

5.. Be presentable, don't look poor, Don't look confused. If targeted ignore it.

try to reread your comments many times to try to memorize it, for it makes better reading if you do have to read it...you can at least glance at the panel once in a while, eye contact is important, speak moderately and within the time frame given,,we were given 3 minutes.  Some spoke longer like the ACLU.

6.. When speaking I wear eye catching bright colors,,after all I want all eyes on me.

7. Do not for goodness sake ramble, that is what they expect and do not repeat information, if you do 

rephrase it.

8. Make sure you use well documented sources for your statements.

9. Be observant,,,watch maintenance and security. 

10 Try to keep track of who and what is around you and as a TI that should be easy..

11. Be patient and expect it to be a long process

12. Bring water and something to eat

13. Comfortable shoes and clothes a must

14. relax

15. think of why you are there and how important it is to you

16. bring something for the wait, knitting is good, magazine?
17. keep in mind the bills you are addressing
18. video for youtube
19. go in groups
20. You can bring your laptop/cell phone/camera/video/
21. make sure your printer has ink for any print outs you need,,,I ran out. so upset.
22. you can wear same color t shirts,,with logo if you want, we felt to dress well left a
better impression.

I will add to this as other ideas and thoughts of the day come to me..I shall email this to many. 

My Darling Daughters

I have been thinking about my daughters,,,one decides the other follows,,,kelly always followed danielle, for danielle spoke for her for the first seven years of her life..kelly was and always has been Danielle's first child.  She took over immediately when I came home from hospital..

they both think I am a bad parent,,, I cannot understand why, I never beat them, never brought strange men in their lives to abuse them, fed them well, they fed the neighborhood with the groceries I bought, when I went to work.   we ate healthy good food. never prepackaged. or processed,,I always had a fresh bowl of fruit on my table.

I never dated,,once in a six month time frame and always they never knew about it.. Friday and Sat nights I worked,, the other nights I had free we spent at the computer arcade,,no one had games in their homes or computers or laptops,,no one I knew.  Just arcades with all kinds of games in them,my favorite was Tetras,,,Kelly I think was pacman and I do not know what Danielle's was.

I took them out for Sunday Brunch and they were well behaved, we really enjoyed sunday brunch at The Old Ox down the beach.. we ate there as much as I could afford two to three times a month or so.

I took a friend's kids one time,,Joa's and they were so misbehaved they had me in tears,,I never took them again.  The food was great and we loved it. 

We spent a lot of time at the beach,,we lived uphill from Mission Beach in Clairmont,, they roller skated in Balboa Park,,and we visited the zoo quite often.  This is what I see, this is what I remember, 

I saw a daughter who ran off with this 16 girl and they were going to drive to Georgia  , by the time I  found her several days later she was really glad to see me. Joy was on her face when I finally found her.. no I did not call the police,,I should have but did not,,I was just glad to find her,,her friend knew where she was and she would not tell me at first till I threatened her with the police, then she told me where she was, she was supposed to be at this girl's house and I cannot rmember all the details. Just enormous relief and I could not understand nor was she reasonable as to why she left. She was young 12,,Danielle always ran away,,I think in some ways it was an adventure for her.  I remember she went out the window with sheets one time, when I punished her. 

I think she and Kelly were used to being beaten by Kathy, the live in baby sitter  who lived with the father, not my sitter.

(who had 2 young girls as well, so she had 4 kids all at once and kelly told me she used to beat her,, with kelly one never knows the truth or not, she tells stories for various effects, she told Laura and Kristen, Bud's sister I abused her and in conversation, I told kristen other things of our life , so she knew that Kelly had made some of her woes up. I realized what happened when Kristen was totoally surpirsed at the things I described about our life,,Kelly agreed, not realizing she let the cat out of the bag.) 

my former husband had moved into his house.  

I agreed for him to take the kids,,,I had gotten fired from three jobs, never thought of welfare in total,, they more or less paid my rent. I did the rest. So we did not live wealthy that is for sure ,,it is always a constant grinding struggle when your poor, no wonder the poor steal and rob and are mean, their lives are mean.

So we divorced that was to haunt me in later years.   At that time their was no such thing as no fault divorce,, his friend who lived in georgetown and who had already divorced lost everything his wife took everything. I knew when I was going to divorce, I would not do that. I gave my husband two years to change, he ignored me as usual, so I left. who wants a life like that, I didn't. ,,I was unhappy,ignored, a babysitter, and a maid, sexual depository, Fuck him, he told me when I saw him on one of my trips back east that he really never knew how much work I did. He never ever appreciated me. To late for you and me, you should of appreciated me,,it took very little to make me happy and you, son of a bitch never made the effort. You lose and our kids lost and I did too..  

I asked for very little in my life,I had a small life and liked it, never millions for me.   A good book thrilled me more than anything money could buy. I asked for a few things I wanted and Donald ignored them, I got fed up. so I left,,We met  later after Kathy moved in and he told me all the things he had done I wanted,,to learn to dance so we were not the only couple at the table and I watched him get drunk,,so fun,, he opened the upstairs wall on the stairs, so it would be a part of the house instead of appearing as an attic, Our house was not new,  and I hated it from day one..He bought that house for him and it took me many years to figure out why he liked the house, it was gloomy just like his mothers house.. I realized much later it had the same light and that was comfortable for him,,,his mothers house was always gloomy and cold to me.  So it was his house. I left it to him he gave me 2000 to buy me out and I accepted it when we divorced. I left half of everything, and the bureaus, and took the kids beds for furniture leaving my living room rug and set I loved so much. He ruined it. 

Even  though the kids were given to him in the divorce because of those charges they came to live with me,,,this was only one promise I can remember he kept. He never contested me for them.  The divorce  was cruel and abusive treatment this is all the charges you could divorce with at the time,,,no fault came out later.  

I waited at the courthouse and I remember I had gotten their first , he told me to wait in the hall and not to enter the courtroom, my lawyer did,  from lawrence, someone I met and he did this as a favor,,some favor.. Donald asked me not to enter the court room because he would have to say terrible things about me and he knew I would object and he said the divorce would not go through. He wanted the divorce, his friend had told him over and over again that I would come back and screw him over if he did not divorce,,,I would take his beloved house from him,,

I never did. I would never of married again so it was moot to me.  So I stayed in the corridor and all these men sealed my fate for later years at the hands of other men, who investigated my history to see who I was.  CRUEL AND ABUSIVE TREATMENT.

I tried to enter a statement about this but he had died and the court said no, I could not.

I gave the kids to him after a few months,,I was stressed, my brother baby sat while I worked and I was not to sure about him,, with anything. Kelly got sick,,my night off and I was reading in my bed when I heard a gurgle , and it did not sound right to me so I got up and went in Kellys room and picked her up , no response and she was blue.